as i lay there in his arms my mind cant help but go to what we had talked about earlier, why couldnt she have spoken up and realized how she felt for him earlier. she had just let it go and said ok, they had been together for nearly 7 years now, maybe not the best of friends but they were there they talked they walked home together ever now and then. she was unsure, she was stuck on someone else who would just end up hurting her. 2 years he had been with her, 2 years they had used eachother and become addicted to everything they did with eachother. she has taken so many of the firsts that i wish that i could have, maybe not now...but eventually, there are so many things that i wish i could do to help him when he says that i do but i have seen what it has done to his mind, i wish that i could go back and change things for him, take his addictions away from him and tell her to just ******** off, i have seen the hurt in his eyes when he slips or when he goes to do something that he did in the past, i have felt the pain because he trys so hard to change his furure and to banish his addictions, i love him, i hate seeing the hurt in his eyes and knowing that i cant help him and all i can do is hope that i never do anything to push him away from me. He never wants to hurt me he never wants to slip like he did and i will do all that i can to keep him from doing that. I love you B.M.S. <3
smexy emo 24 Community Member 
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