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Sucks huh? My 16th birthday...the one I've always looked forward to as being the "Dream Birthday"...but I guess dreams don't necessarily come true...especially for me. Sure, they take my brother to New York and leave me sitting here behind a computer screen, supposedly completing computer courses (but whatever) rolleyes I hate this all honestly. I had it all planned out, you see. But apparently, I'm NOT supposed to plan anything at all. Life doesn't work according to plan...so I guess I'm just stuck.

This summer, this June really...this day (actually) a year ago, would have been the first day I ever met my Alex...(I shouldn't even say "my" anymore... *sigh*). My mom drove me halfway across the U.S. to meet up with him (some boy I met online...and only knew for 2 entire months at the time). Was the best birthday ever, honestly.

But happiness isn't for me...it never was.

I was in a relationship with Alex (LDR) for over an entire year. I decided to meet him once more December 2008 and also on the Valentine's Day this year...I flew out there for him each time. Recently, when school finally let out for me, I flew back over there to get on a plane the next day with him, so that he could come out here with me and my family and stay for a while. Big mistake.

I mean, he's perfectly fine...I guess. He's somewhat intelligent. But he's a "city boy"...the kind that I love...and the kind that my parent's don't want to understand. But, anyways, not my point! Back to the story. He decided to leave me...8 days ago. June 10th. And for some liar of a girlfriend already. (How did she lie? you ask?) Well, long story short...they both hatched the plan to make me believe she was a transexual. oO Like omg, right?

Whatever. I'm so over that now. I'm on my own again, just like I always was. With my computer and nobody else around except Pip, my little Pomeranian...on my 16th birthday...about to cry and who really cares right? Who really wants to give a damn about me? They all leave me on my birthday. They all hate me...all of them except James, I do figure. James and Bhanu (my only true friends: the one's I can actually trust). Though, neither of them are here...so crying . And who'll really read this anyway? Nevermind...I'm sorry if I wasted your time too...

But if you really wanna save me...if you really wanna know more (haha...unlikely) I'm EXTREMELY free today...PM me? whee I think I'ma make a thread about this...I really need to talk to somebody :[