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[What's Happenin' with Skully] |
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0k, if you care OR wana know hear it is but it's so long.
I moved in Feb. 2008 to a new state, I was the weird girl with no friends for 3 months. 6th grade, a new school and different people.... I couldn't wait I knew it'd be a second chance.
In November of last year, I was introduced to a boy name Atif by my History teacher *for a project*. He was mean. Evil. Insulted me every five minutes. I wouldn't leave him alone though, and I'd tell him that more people would like him if he was a TAD BIT nicer. Sumhow, I started likin him. And for sum reason,... He changed We became friends.
In December, we went on a field trip. He ditched his friends to sit with me... We sat by eachother... We held hands. But, when we got back to school, in Art class, he told me he was Muslim. He doesn't date. And no one in his family can know about us.
Time passed, still friends and lovers. We did a few things our parents would kill us for... But we did it cuz we might not ever get to again. He is supose to be moving to Chicago. I wasn't gona let him leave without sumthin to remember by. Memories to take with him. -BUT it still wasn't offical if he was moving-
The weekend we got out of school, he IMed me (sumthin that was VERY dangerous for him). Almost everyday since we've talked. But lately, I've found myself moving on,... And he says so many things that just make me want to. He found out 6/22/09 he IS MOST LIKELY moving.
But before he told me that though, I sent him an email with a story...
^SkullyBean realized she had done nothing but hurt herself. She could blame no one. She fell in love and knew the risks, sacrifices, and the most likely outcome. She'd known all along. Tonight, when she's lying in bed, she'll be thinking to herself,
"Why did this happen? What can I do to change it? I know what I wanted, and this isn't it. You don't always get what you want,... But if you want it bad enough & try to get it, eventually you will. Maybe all we need is time. Maybe we just need a miracle."
The Black Rose (Atif) was right. He could live without her. She hadn't known 'til now though, that she can live without him, too. Though she had said it so many times before, she decided it's time to move on.
Why be in love when the pain is too much? Why be in love if it holds you back? SkullyBean hopes to never find out.
As she closes this door tonight, a new one will open, and the memories she created with The Black Rose will travel with her. Some way soon fade, some may forever stay.
Whatever is to come, whatever is meant to be, let it be.
The End.^
Then, Atif told me goodbye and said he doesn't plan on ever talking to me again. And he keeps his word. He sent me this though:
^The Black Rose can be seen on his motorcycle racing through the city he once called home, not looking back. He is looking at everything one last time. All of his friends are on the side of the street, telling him he's making a mistake, but he knows that this is right.As he looks at all of his friends, he can't seem to notice that something is missing. Then he realizes that the one person that is probobly the only one that can convince him to stay isn't there.Then he also realizes that she is also the only one that can convince him to leave quicker and without worry.
"Where is she?" He thinks to himself.Her absence is just making him want to leave quicker.
He can now see the exit out of the city. He does something he rarely does. He stops at the exit,gets off his bike, and reads the sign one last time.
"Now leaving--" Thats as far as he got when he decided to look back.There she was standing there.
"So you've decided, huh?"She asked.
All he did was look at her and asked"Why have u come?"
"You know better than I do why I have come."
He just stood there looking at her, wondering if this is right.
"Will i ever see u again?" She asked, knowing the answer.
"Nope. You wont even hear from me again or talk to me again."
Then they hugged one last time."Its time for me to go." Said The Black Rose "My home town awaits. Goodbye.....forever." Then he got on his bike and rode off against the memories he will keep forever,in his heart, and she will do the same.....^
He called it the Secret Ending.
I AM NOT GONA BE OK. He opened me up. I was like a box wrapped in alyers of wrapping paper. Every moment we spent together ripped another layer off to the point where he opened me. I started acting like a retard to everyone lol. Total laugh machine. But, he also made me worry 'n cry. I didnt want tht. But, i want him... I dont know what to do. Guess tht's [the end].
 SkuLLy B3An · Wed Jun 24, 2009 @ 12:01am · 0 Comments |
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