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You know what I'm scared of, is a repeat of what happened.
another Collin.

I met Collin in 5th grade, in Eden NY when I lived with my grandparents.
I had a cruch on him
Needless to say he didn't share that same thing
Later at a family reunion I found out that he was a distant cousin.
Didn't dicourage me. "Distant, right? I mean, it he's distant it don't matter" I said.
On my first day of school at Amherst High and as a freshman I got the worst news of my life. I got out of the shower and went upstairs, pretty excited for my new school year. My mom came upstairs and she was crying. "You know your friend Collin?" she choked
Instantly I was crying, "No....no...what's wrong? What happened....?!" She started crying harder, "He died today."

My world fell apart.

Even now I'm still trying to pick up the pieces.
Not to long ago I went camping with my dad.
There was a boy there, named Shane.
I really liked him, just as I had liked Collin.
except this time, the "love" was two sided. He liked me too~
I asked my dad about him.
Turns out,

he's my distant cousin.

I'm so scared for him
I'm so scared.
And I don't know what to do
so I sent my angel to him, to protect him
I can't stand it happening again...


Collin... I hope your year is going good.
I bet you would be excited with school out.
Please, please, helpe me protect Shane
even though you didn't know him
Keep him safe
Cousin...