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Gawd...i really dislike what has been going on lately. Im beginning to wonder if friends really were friends in first place when the get into a fight. Were they? I sometimes feel lie i was the only one that cherished the friendship in first when this sort of thing happens. This early morning i think i just lost a friend. He was changing, or maybe i saw it that way. Before it wasn't so hard to talk to him. He wouldn't rant on the first thing we said. He'd sometimes think no one's listening to him when he talks but that's obviously not true or else i wouldn't be able to know this. He was a cocky, cheerful, smart a~~, kind and caring(inhisownway), and responsible young man. There are other good and not so good things about him that i admire him for. Well for some time now he's still cocky but he lost the cheerfulness, the way he cared and how he was kind. Now, now he just constantly talks back, rants, doesn't care, complains...and other things that wouldn't make sense if i said them. Well, towards me he would point out my "flaws" either straight fowardly or inconspicuously. Yes he would make a point by using examples. I have noticed but i didn't want to stir up an argument or assume anything. So i let it go. He doesn't care. He's been so selfish. there's no point in telling him anything because of how he is now, he doesn't care at all. He'll only find that i was wrong or i didn't get what he was saying. Has he ever tried to think that he wasn't getting what the other person was saying? today i told him that he has been annoying me lately directed towards his actions and attitude. In response he said "That's wonderful"...wth was he trying to do? yeah it's obvious, i know. But why? Not too long after he said how he'd end the convo i said my part that i tae things offensively. His response was "ok, thats just dandy for now, but i've been up for too long now"....i don't think we'd stay good friends. I don't want to end up being like my dad waiting for people to understand me, but how im feeling right now is how come my close friends don't understand me. Maybe he does but just doesn't care. It bothers me how comfortable he was knowing that what he said would hurt me. I only kept very few as close friends, he was one of them. A friend, not someone i can benefit from for my future, but people that i can trust and can trust me. I do care about my friends. Why has he changed? he's become so selfish and short tempered.
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