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So here's the thing, i guess i've gotta just accept..i'm an ugly girl. Every single time i become confident in myself, something just seems to happen to bring that down..on the same day too. i guess i just gotta give up trying to beleive that i'm pretty..cause i'm not. I only beleive that i am sometimes, but that's only when im alone actually, once i go out, i guess it's not the same. i try and stay confident-i straighten my back, i keep my head high and my eyes straight, and i start feeling confident, but then something happens..something's always gotta happen, and i'm not confident anymore. my head isn't high anymore, and i avoid looking at ppl. i won't speak, i won't smile or laugh..i'm just..idk, an ugly girl. But i kno i could never get over it, ppl may think that i'm just trying to get attention by saying i'm ugly, ******** u pretty girl, ur only saying that cause u don't ******** kno, or if someone says i'm trying to get attention and their ugly themselves, well it's good that ur confident, but instead of shooting me down, wtf, help me. Anyway, don't EVER tell me i'm pretty, save some time, cause hun, i won't beleive u. i want to, but i won't beleive anyone.