"Dad" is so embarrassing!!!
My dad is starting to piss me off, it all started to happen right when I started going to 5th grade, he was starting to act differently. So, I just thought it was a phase and went on with my life. I used to be "happy" at that time until I started getting bullied and stuff. Now he treats me differently! I'm serious! It pisses me off! It's like, every time I try and be the daughter he wants to be he shoots me down! What the ******** is up with that?! I try to get into golf like he does and it takes him 3 weeks to finally take me to the driving range! I try to get him to teach me tenis and he rarely takes me and my brother was going with us so it didn't really count as "father daughter" stuff. I try to get intrested in baseball and let him help me but he helps my brother! He says he treats me like this because he wants me to be independant and not have to depend on someone to take care of me! You know what?! That's the reason I don't like my dad anymore! He's pushing me away from him and that's not fair! My dad's friends also see how he treats me and my brother differently! His cousin told me that I need to have fun and enjoy life while I still can because once I go to college I have to work for the rest of my life. Dad's golf buddy says that he needs to let loose on me. My mom and his cousin were talking about how he treats me and my brother differently, like he's more strict on me then he is bro. She told him that I'm a little angel and work on my grades and stuff and bro just whines and doesn't care about his grades! I don't know what to do anymore! What's worse, it all goes in a cycle! He asks me to do something, I mess up, he yells at me, I go into my room and lock the door and cry, and he goes in and makes me feel better. It's pissing me off and I need to stop this cycle, I think that my only options are to run away or lock myself in my room and never come out! In the end, I feel like it's my fault that he's so mad all the time. He drinks sometimes and only like one beer and he doesn't take any medication so I don't think that's it. I don't know, is it really my fault?
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