a couple of days ago, I was doing really good staying away from Jinxx... but ever since then nothing is normal. i havem't been able to figure out anything else about Jinxx. I am becoming so confused with facts.......and facts that are fake. I'm never sure if I'm truly afraid Jinxx, or what about her makes me afraid. Is it her trying to convince me that we are the same person? Is she a demon, evil spirit, or a ghost? Do I really want her gone? Some part of me just stays fearful. Am I missing something? I keep hearing whispers "I'm scared". I still don't know what, but something feels different. When everything is quiet at home in the night, I look up to the sky and see a beautiful moon but now, I barely see a moon and... I sense fear. I'm not sure weather or not to doubt myself when I know something isn't right.
When did Jinxx show up? was it when I felt like I couldn't breathe... that time where my adrienaline went to far and I was gasping for air, my hands shut so hard that it left bleeding marks, and my eyes burning while tears slipped down on my face making it feel like tears of blood. I couldn't breathe right for more than a week, most people were concerned, and I would think of how pathetic they sounded...that was when my thoughts changed and slowly began to open up to darkness. My light became dim and the darkness started taking control. Why did Jinxx chose me? The whispers "I'm scared" now turn into "hurt me. I deserve to bleed". Is it true that I'm slowly being possesed by... by a... what is Jinxx? What is with her and her addiction to pain? I am scared to answer the question "What do you think of blood?"
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