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I'm ranting, beware.

Why is is after i have an amazing night with the most amazing person on the planet i feel like crap the next day? I can't sleep or start crying. I randomly start crying alot and i wish everything i cry about i could tell him but I'm just to stupid to do so. I can't feel happy without having a total downer the next day! And any news i get is always (almost always) bad news! Like i'm happily going along my date last night then He says his parents wont let us have a date if he goes to this tournament and he did but he already went on the date with me and was training for this for 6 months but i mean COME ON 7WEEKS WHAT THE HELL!!! And he possibly couldn't have even went on the date cuz' he had to go eat dinner later after that so we only got to see a movie. And i feel like i'm getting so much information left out when he tells me stuff. I grated i never ask questions but i feel out of the loop and i can tell his parents are using me against him and i don't want to do anything to hurt him but I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AND HE IS THE BEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME AND I NEVER WANT HIM TO GO AWAY.