Wednesday, august 19, Just another day in emptyness.
Just another day with headache, voices in my head, bad memories showing up together, and the usual stuff: "Suicide Thoughts".
How do i feel about it? Well, imagine yourself, walking around a wasteland, with no weather, and everything calm, under an orange sunset, and the bad thing is the feeling of complete loneliness and inutility that just keeps getting stronger, while you get to understand how insignificant you are compared to everything else in your life.
If you all knew how bad do i feel, it could be even possible that you understand, why i wish everything to end.I'm tired of being useless, i'm tired of being empty, of being dead while i'm alive.
I don't even have a reason to stay, and i'm tired of avoiding it, and if i leave, you all will think i'm a coward, and i can't deny, since taking the "escape door" is for the weak or hopeless, but that's what i've become.
WEAK!
HOPELESS!
Now repeat the two words above at least 50 times each, so then you'll get a very small taste of what i'm passing through.
I don't know how much i'll have to wait, but as long as i am alive, i have this feeling of emptyness that never goes away, and keeps choking me the more i avoid it.
I just want you all to know that i'm not happy alive, and that i'm tired of feeling so bad always, i just don't have anything more to say.
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