DAMN! ITS ALL MY ******** FAULT THEY R FIGHTING! ALL BECAUSE OF A ******** BINDER! DAD YELLS MOM YELLS AND U TRACE THEIR FIGHT STRAIGHT TO ME! I HATE THIS, I DONT THINK I CAN TAKE THIS ANYMORE
THIS FAMILY WOULD BE A WHOLE LOT HAPPIER AND BETTER IF I WAS NEVER HERE
I KNOW THAT AND THEY KNOW THAT
EVEN THOUGH THEY WONT TELL ME THAT I STILL KNOW ITS EASILY SIMPLE MINDED LOGIC!
IM THE DAMN REASON NO ONE GETS ALONG
IM THE ONE WHO STARTS s**t WITHOUT EVEN KNOWING IT!!
My life is going down in a dark endless spiral of hate, pain, and death
BULL EVERYONE SEE'S US AS A HAPPY FAMILY, NOT TRUE
LIFE IS BECOMING UNBEARABLE FOR ME TO HANDLE
i dont have control anymore it seems like im the black cat of misfortune
anyone who comes near me will suffer
suffer without me even knowing or caring...
im a selfish sly little b***h
all my life i wondered why i had that devil dream
{the devil coming to me at a young age telling me im his daughter}
im sumwat of a Christain
geeze i dont know who or what i am anymore!!
but now the dream/nightmare has began to come all together
im putting together the pieces and maybe im not the devils daughter
but i am the worst human out there
ive done things no one would even know or believe
not even my bestfriend of eternity knows
i feel like such a hypocrite
im not who ppl think i am im a total fake!
i feel horrible not telling my friend anything even though she had confided in me with so much
life has taken a toll on me for the worse.
im not the type to commit suicide
i wont of course not!
but i may not want to commit suicide i just maybe want to fade away into the evaporation
to have no one know who i am to have nothing to do with me
maybe if i have others hate me they wouldn't want anything to do with me, and i will only be a distant memory of their past
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Life sux. We all know. Just deal with it the best you can. Yeah rite.
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Your not that bad! You know some of the crap I've done so how can you say you are the worse person in the world?
I seriously doubt it your fault they are fighting. If they started fighting over a binder they were probably looking for an excuse to argue and there is something else going on.
Just cheer up sweety. You know I'm here if you need to talk (and you know I won't judge you either)