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1 I been searching far and wide high and low doing my damdest to think of the places you would go Ever since our eyes met for that brief second all those years ago.
I've had this unexplainable. Uncontrollable feeling driving me mad.
Dreaming I could have it aging fearing I may never find it aging.
So I set sail to travel the world and tell the tale of that famous girl who could ignite you soul with a smile. Who could capture your hear with her eyes leaving behind feelings of rapture and bliss. That’s why it dose bother my one little bit to tap you on the shoulder and ask for a smile. To walk up to a stranger and gaze deep in her eyes I been searching for you far and wide high and low. So leave to journey the world thinking of places you might go.
2 Hey baby I got something to tell you and it's coming from the heart. Shh no please don't say a word this is already pretty hard. I don't want to leave but I got to go hopefully you'll be here waiting but that’s a lot to ask I know. Walking away right now really hurts my heart so but I don't have a choice I just got to go. So I'm not gonna say goodbye cause I hope we'll be together aging even if it's when we die. What gonna do is leave you with a little something to remember me by. So when start to feel lonely or something jars your memory start singing this song .An know that somewhere in this world there one you can claim as your own.Yea remember the day we met I had just won the game and you wouldn't give me the time of day cause you thought jokes where all the same. it took me forever to get you to change I can still see the braids in your hair and the way your skirt sat high in the back so you tied your jacket around your waist but there was no hiding that. I remember our first date how you though we where making a mistake till you got your first taste of my special hot plate then you started to relax and after that things went so fast. We only been to gather for a little while but every time I think of you I can't help but to smile. So just in case you don't get to see me for awhile here’s a little something to remember me by. Spread your lips an smile raise a silent prayer for your special guy hum these words and I'll always be by your side. I know I'm leaving you but I refuse to say goodbye just pray that I return and take this little something to remember me by.
3 I found another side of me today I thought I died for the last time when you walked away. though here lately I seem to be enjoying the pain of remembering your name. I seem to cherish the agony of the memories of our intamicy.laugh while I beat my self up for not trying to hold on knowing I couldn't have stopped you from leaving.suprised that I got enough life left for my heart to be bleeding.sitting here on this cold lonely night wishin I was needed.wondering how I had something so good and forced it away from me cause I was no good now I'm siuttin here on this cold lony night wishin i could tell her she was needed



4 I'm focused like never before I'm doing everything I can think of giving my all like never before.My goal is to touch your soul I don't wana take your mind I wana make you want to be mine.So i take my time and do it like it's my first time and I'm a make it last a life time.everything seems to be movin in slowmotion it's like I can read your mind the way I be stroking your body tells me all i need to know with every twitch and groan.I know I'm out on a libm here but I want this to be like never before cause I want you to be mines forever more.I'm so focused on my plan that That I miss the clues.Now I'm sitting in the midlle of the floor curled into a ball klost and confused.not understanding how she could do this to me when we shaered a soul.I let past that bariier with her I wasn't a man i relsead control i barexd my soul and she left me hurt lost and confused.She didn't even have the dignity to make me feel used she never did me wrong and she swears I did everything just right and she not leaving me for a nother I'm the only one she'll ever like Atleast thats what she says as shes walking out the door now I know why men never show thier feelings and why daddy didn't mind paying for a whore if I would treated like a one night stand or just another score I wouldn't be sittin here in the middle of the floor trying to figure out why my heart don't wana beat no more.
5 Come here and sit down its way past time we had a talk. Cause its a few things that I need to get of my chest and there’s some things that you need to lay to rest. I know it's been hard on you and I probably only passed the test because you fell in love with me thinking that I was your best. Though you walk around with this half timid frown like I don't pay you no never mind. I just want you to know that you always think I don't notice but I see when you cut your hair. I know you got a pedicure and the langire that you had oon was new. I see the make up and yes my food is always hot and the house stay made up. I pay attention to the details just cause I don't know how to express my feelings don't think your alone don't you notice how hard I work to keep you from getting hurt .don't you notice that if you ever mentioned you might have wanted it you had it before to long. Words may make you feel better but my actions should prove that you should have never doubted my frame of mind or my feelings for you at anytime. I expire to desire only to please you so instead walking around with a sour face not knowing what to say because you thought I never noticed take a second to sit down and notice just how hard I try and this is the last time we have this conversation cause I hate talking bout my feelings cause I’m a guy lol.