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The Life and Mind of DamnBlackHeart
This is to help me stay actively writing. So expect to see rants, tips on writing, thoughts on subjects, me complaining of boredom, reviews, anime, movies, video games, conventions, tv shows and whatever life throws at me.
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I don't think I'll ever tell this to certain friends directly to their face, but I find some things that they do terribly annoying. Annoying enough that it brings down my happy attitude and makes me want to get off the internet and do something else just so I can be happy again.
I already know that no one reads this unless I ask them to. However, that's one of the things that annoys me. I'm freaking tired of suggesting and/or asking them to read my stuff. Seriously, it won't take five hours to read. I'm not talking about reading this blog...I'm talking about stories, poetry, songs etc. I read their stuff because I want too (and they don't ask me either, unless I don't know about it) and because I care. And when I read something of their's I leave a comment. I know I don't have to but it's because I want to and I know it'll make them happy. If it makes them happy than I'm happy too.
At first I thought it was just me that got annoyed with everything. But after a while I started to really look into it and I notice that it's just certain things that my friends do that bothers me. Like do they really care? Would it really kill them to randomly take a few minutes of their time and see what's new (and I don't mean by asking. Because they'll be like, "okay cool" and leave it at that.) with me? To read what I wrote exactly in my blog or the story I was talking about, or the poem I wrote?
I'm not asking that they read everything I write. Just the ones that matter the most to me....my stories and sometimes the personal things I write in my blog like this entry. But like I said before, I know they won't and if they always wonder why I'm all unhappy in my responses when I talk to them, than this is why.
Because they don't read.
Another thing is those that ask me to look up things. I look things up daily for myself and if I have four other people telling me to randomly look up things for them, it's gets annoying fast. Even more so when they're already on the computer themselves or have access to the internet on their mobile phone. When they ask me, chances are I'm busy doing something I consider more important but they don't ask if I am. They expect me to look it up right now. If I'm ask to look up another simple thing like the name of some actor that played in a old movie than I will start ignoring people and telling them 'access denied'. Other than that, yes you can ask me to look things up....but please, please make sure it's nothing that can easily be looked up on the internet or a dictionary, yourself. Or that it's something too complicate that takes me two hours to try to explain when it's not even an homework assignment that I'm helping you with.
This never was a problem with me until this year. Religion. It started getting on my nerves a lot because of all these stupid documentaries, internet ads, channels (like history, or the discovery channel) have been showing specials on the bible or something like stupid hidden meaning things and it's making people paranoid. I don't blame the people that get paranoid....it's the media that makes them like that. That paranoia grows, creating conspiracies that effect people I know and makes them go into, "end of the world depression/darkness" thing.
That is annoying and it makes me physically and mentally tired.
....I would very much like to not talk about it or avoid bringing it up when it's unnecessary. I've repeated myself many times and I don't know what to say anymore. Even than, I don't want to argue with anyone or make them upset if I someday snap at them or stop talking to them all together. Really...I may not seem all that effected by it but it's like a disease. If one keeps bringing it up I will go into my own, "drive me crazy/want to break something" fit.
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My mother already has me going into a fit. I don't need a couple of friends adding onto that.
Incase all of you (if any are reading this at all) are wondering, I'm not talking about one or two people or even three. Many of my friends are doing these things....so no....I'm not attacking anyone specifically. You know I don't do that, I'm just stating what's annoying me and to please be aware or maybe not do these things anymore.
Lastly....if I said happy birthday to you and stuff. Why didn't you ever tell me happy birthday when it was mine? I know you didn't forget either. Also, please don't lie to me and say you have present for me, that just makes it depressing to know you had nothing in the first place or will never give it to me. You should already know that I don't care if I don't ever get anything at all. And if you do, it doesn't have to something big. Hell, a pack of gum you had in your back pocket for a month could have been counted as a present. Or even a crappy stick figure drawing would make me smile/happy. You know I'm not picky and is easily amused when it comes to my birthday. Why? Because those things are the thought that counts/better than nothing I guess.
Heh, I have enough issues as it is with my birthday...please don't add onto it.
 DamnBlackHeart · Sat Oct 17, 2009 @ 05:19pm · 0 Comments |
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