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Yeah, today was a complete waist. I sat on the computer all day waiting to talk to my friend. The ONE time I left, they got on. I'm still on, waiting. It's 1am. Why can't I just say "******** it" and get off?!? I really wanna talk to them. I hate myself. I get all stupid and s**t over someone who doesn't feel the same as me. It's rediculous. Do I still like them? I don't know anymore! I stay up late trying to talk to them over the web. I stay up late talking to them over the phone. I'm stupid. So stupid. I'm supposed to be OVER him! This is absolutly rediculous! Why? Why, why, why, why, WHY?! I'm not supposed to like him! I did, then realized he no likey da Bina. So why do I still act like I like him? Am I just used to this behavior?
THATS IT! I am used to this! I spent two years being stupidly in love with him, that I'm used to this behavior! HA! So I'm not completely over him...I just think I am. No I don't! He's always on my mind! UGH! I hate being stupid. I'm pretty sure Chloe whould enjoy this SO much. This is what Chloe would call a "popcron story". No reason why. Actualy there is a reason. But explaining has always been hard for me.
Wow, i'm really hyped up on that coffeee.....