I havnt cried for a long while. It hurts. I hate the feeling, feeling tears dry up. I wanted to tell Laura somethings she should have known via Soliaonline. I ended stumbleling to a post she had on there. I was shocked, that i had become a monster, but that she still loved me. UGH!!!! THIS s**t IS TO MUCH!!! I ******** UP SO ******** MUCH!!! I cant believe i didnt see it!!! THE WHOLE ******** TIME!!! I was hurting her! I was so caught up in my obssession that she forced apon me, that i was so paranoid of losing her!!! s**t!!!
Im just a ******** monster!!!! I cant see what i was doing to her, the whole time!!! SHE LOVED ME, BUT COULDNT STAND THE MONSTER IN ME!!! UGH!!! Its ALL my fault. Thats the honest truth. But now i ******** up my ONLY chance to be with her!!! I should just stayed friends!!!! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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