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Anyone else feel like they have to live up to everyone else's standards?
That you can no longer to anything for yourself?
That you need to be someone that you're not?
That you no longer know who you are anymore?
That you could never fail, for fear of what might happen if you do?
That anything you do, even if YOU think is right...... is really wrong to everyone else?
That you lost sense of what you really are?
That you're lost in the endless black hole of society that you can't get out anymore?
That you're so tangled up in the web of lies and insults of others that it's too much to bear?
That you need to bottle up your true feelings and thoughts in fear that others might see who you really are?
That you want to release your true self but can't? Only in the presence of ones you can actually trust or people who don't see what you have to go through everyday?
Do you feel as though you can trust no one anymore?
Have you lost all the ones you thought you could trust and were your so called "best friends forever" for reasons unknown?
Have you lost the people who you thought could always back you up no matter what and don't know how the hell why?
Are you now being betrayed by the people who were your friends?
Are you now being hated by all your best friends and don't know why?
Do you cry yourself to sleep almost every night?
Do you wish you could turn back time and get everything back?
Do you feel like nothing is right?
Do you feel like no one can hear you?
Do you wish to scream "HERE I AM!!!! SEE ME!!! THIS IS ME!!!"?
Do you feel trapped in a glass box where you are always watched?
Do wish there was someone to listen?
Do feel any of this?
Or is it just......me?