GOLDEN DAYS
Father of mine,
Tell me where have you been?
Yeah, I just closed by eyes.
And the world disappeared.
Father of mine
Tell me how do you sleep?
With the children you abandoned?
And the wife I saw you beat?
I will never be safe,
I will never be sane,
I will always be weird inside,
I will always be lame.
I drove to my moms house.
it was raining, and the thunder and lightening was crashing down so hard. like it was leading me someplace. :/
and instead of Knocking, i was so tired, upset, confused... i just walked on in. without telling anyone.
i walkedin, fell to myknees, dropped the car keys, and started bawling
My mother thought i was a burgaler and she had a knife in her hand
Mom- Alright you burgaler! out of my house before I... um... Kill you or soemthing...
she was so lame at being mean.
is that where i get it from???
Bastend-Mom... Its me.
Mom- Huh?
Bastend- You know.,... the one that ******** up your life?
mom- OH MY GOSH! BASTEND!??!?? Is that.... you? really?
Bastend- Yeah...?
i stood up and faced her.
Mom- OH MY! you got SO TALL!!! and your ... I dont remember your hair being so long, and WOW! your teeth scare me a bit, and i also dont remember your freackles being so.... Wow....
Bastend- gee thanks...
Mom- NO! i mean it looks nice! you look even handsomer! my little boy is growing up! Imissed you so much!
she ran up and we embraced.
it was pretty late. but that was alright.
My little brother Valca woke up.
and i sat them down and told them EVERYTHING.
about ym arrival in smoke pony, my horrible encounter with many thugs, my broken teeth, my NOW DEAD taste buds, my Gross lungs, the king thing, capulet, and finally bombing mountain devil.
My mom simply was shocked. Valca told me Im amazing.
he's been more violent since he had been playing Xbox more....
but thats beside the point.
my mom told me, no one knew she was here, so I didnt have to worry about the people finding me here.
becuase no one knew where she went either :/
so Me being my TIRED SELF
went to sleep in... Valca's room.
and i did. it was fun sleeing in a Spiderman bed. and falling asleep to the sound of people DYING on call of duty or whatever the ******** he was playing
******** shooter games i swear...
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I woke up. all feeling gross and whatever.
And i walked down to the smell of... YUMMYNESS!
Baccon, pancakes, sausage, orange jewz, forks, spoons, plates
I got excited and ran down to eat.
I felt so... bitter sweet.
i felt happy that i left but at the same time.... Horrible
The Tyrant king Left his throne?
who would take it?
And what about Capulet.?
And the people I killed...
i was so scared.
and sad. Mixed emotions.
so i was just eating thinking about everything.
sadly I couldnt Taste anything.
I miss the taste of food.
when mom came up.
Mom- I found this book sweetheart... its going to explain ALOT to you
Bastend- Mrearry?
*really?*
I still had food in my mouth.
Mom- Its about the scared Prophecy. your father didnt want anyone to know that your a chosen one...he was jealous of you.
Bastend- Meye wont Mfink Miss Chlosmen mome Ming Is mrearr.
* I dont think this chosen one thing is real...*
Mom- But bastend it is... your father always made you wear rubber, and didnt EVER let younear things that would trigger it.
Just watch... take off your Braceletts
Bastend- Muttt! Mive Malwerays Mweawred my mubber!! mit Feers Mwierd to take them *swalleows* Off!!
*but Ive always weared my Rubber! it Feels wierd to take them off!*
Mom- Yes bastend, but do it just real quick.
Bastend- Kay.
SO i took off my rubber bracelets
Mom- Now do something cool. or
BZZZZZZZZZZZZT.
the power went off in the whole house.
and you just hear my brother screaming becuase i shut his game off...
i quickly put them back on.
and the power returned.
Bastend- WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?
Mom- You?
Bastend- What the hell? so... if i AM achosen one... my power is... sucking the power out of houses?
Mom- yeah, electricity.
Bastend- okay....Still not convinced.
Mom- Just readd this book.
After i got done eating ym amazingness that i couldnt even taste
I took the book, andwent into Valca's room and started to read it.
it said EVERYTHING that everyone told me about.
Too bad you couldnt choose your own powers, I'd personally like Fire, or maybe Ice or something.
but then i got hit with the feeling of sadness again.
about smoke pony. I was pushing it out. i was tying to ignore it
but no matter how many times i tried to COVER IT UP, or block it out. it still came back. tha Horrible feeling.
the Feeling of being a murderer, the Feeling of being a HOME WRECKER.
Why couldnt i Escape it?
So i just layed on the bed. and started sleeping more. wishing to dream about soemthing else.
I wish i wasnt born,
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For the next couple Months my day went:
Woke up, ate the tasteless food, sat around sulking and force myself to sleep more than i needed to.
My sweet Sixteen birthday hit. and I had no friends to invite.
That was another thing. i had no friends.
The people i Befriended in Mountain Devil were never really my "friends" just used me to get s**t.
i had no one come. it was only my mom, and Valca.
Thank god Capulet called, she told my mother that she was doing fine. I was relived.
didnt have to worry about her.
But still the progressing months were horrible.
I sat there, with my Pessimistic thoughts Hating the world.
Hating myself, and everything.
I still didnt believe i was a chosen one.
why would an Idiot have such power? its dumb.
Its like giving an Ape a Galactic Ray Gun: Ridiculous.
so still itwas like that. I was so sad. nothing was important.
I had No one to talk to but m mom and brother.
It was Feburary.
I was doing my usual Sulking.
When i went to watch the Televiion.
I was still sad. and i was crying. I felt as if nothingg could pick me up.
I felt like it was impossible. and i wanted to Die.
So i sat there on the couch, curled up in a blanket crying.
When Something on the Television happened to me.
This Boy was talking to this other younger Boy.
And he said the Words:
Keep Moving Forward.
The most Simplest of all words,
that little tiny bit of words,
Not even a Sentece.
was the thing that Helped me through it all.
Those words.
Beatiful.
Keep Moving Forward
Becuase Why should we Focus on the bad things in life?
The hurtful Past that haunts us. If we put it behind us, forgive it
then we Can Move forward into a Bright world.
But if you stay in the past, you wont be anything great.
Learn from your mistakes
and Try not to make the same ones.
Learn from your Failures.
An besides,
we cant go any direction but forward right?
and even if theres nothing infront of you
If you keep walking eventually you will find something.
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Note:
Actually happened to me.
those words Saved my life, and ever since Ive never been the same.
I watched the movie "Meet the Robinson's"
And as ridiculous as it sounds
that movie changed my life.
i saw it and cried. becuase It helped me in a Almost helpess time.
And Not a Day passes that i dont say those three words.
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The next Day
I was happy again. and my mom and Valca noticed alot.
everything was wonderful.
It was like The Old Bastend Died.
Everything I once was. Died.
Drop out BAstend was Dead, Horse King was Dead.
It felt great. I grew wings and Sprouted.
I started to LOVE again.
haha.
I then wanted to go shopping. becuase well....
my old clothes were too small. and i didnt want to walk around shirtless with nothing but Braclets and a Bunch of necklaces on.
I looked RIDICULOUS.
so we went, me Val and Mom to go shopping In Dinero.
good thing no one recognized me.
Im so glad that I refused to take pictures... so no one but smoke pony knew what i looked like.
we were shopping
Got a few Flannels. cool. nothing special
This orange one was cool though
and i LOVED IT.
got more pants.
Eh... cool.
I then spotted this Cowboy store.
and we walked in. being the WONDERFUL idiotic person i am
I begged my mom to get Cowboy chaps and Cowboy boots.
becuase they looked so COOL!.
we also went to alot of vintage stores
Who didnt want to walk around wearing that?
So after our little shoppness
we went home. and i tried on all my clothes.
The next morning my brother came to me all sad.
Valca- Bastend...
he was holding a Fish bowl with his dead fishy in it.
bastend- What is it Val?.... AW! NOT YOUR FISHY!
Valca- He just did that... can you help?
Bastend- How can I help?
Valca- Well you have Electriicty right?
Bastend- I guess so...
Valca- Can you revive my Fish? I wanna see if you can be like... a GODDESS.
Bastend- ima s Pretty as a goddess
I did a sexy pose on the bed,
My brother was distrubed.
we went outside (becuase my mom didnt wasnt me to take out the power in the houseagain)
we layed the fishy on a rock in the backyard.
we started to play DOCTOR.
it was funny becuase Here i was 17, and my little brother was 15.
Valca- Okay Doctor Bastend. your PATIENT NEEDS YOU!
bastend- yes Nurse Valca!?
Valca- Nurse? i was thinking a MANLY ASSISTANT.
Bastend-... a nurse?
Valca- No another doctor! like an AID to you. y'know? not a nurse a doctors Aid.
Bastend-..............A Nurse?
Valca- NO! A MANLY ASSISTANT.
Bastend- ..........okay.... Manly assistant Nurse... PREPARE TO TAKE OFF MEH GLOVIES!
and vlaca removed one.
and the other.
I then
took both my pinkies and placed them over the fish
bastend- CLEAR!
and zapped the fishy a bit.
I did it over. but the fish didnt wannabe alive.
So i did it one last time. and the Fish Exploded.
There was Fish everywhere. In my hair, all over valca.
We just looked at eachother
Valca- Okay... Im NOT letting you near Any of my animals... haha.
Bastend- yeah thats the Best option.
I was actually Bonding with my brother. it was nice.
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In March we got a Black Cat to replace Val's fish.
I named her Spider Monkey.
she liked me more.
haha I love that cat.
Aprl,
we Got a Great Dane and Named it Adonis....
he was Huge...
I was still a bit lonely. ot as with the animals.
but still pretty lonely.
I had no friends.
I was so sad about that. that was my onlyissue.
everything else was WONDIFEROUS.
my life was going great.
May, and June.
My mom told me to train for THE TWILIGHTS DAWN ting.
I did the first couple days
i tried using my powers but i didnt know how.
The only thing i could do was... well
make Electriciy Come out of my hands and Mouth.
But i still was In denial. and i tried to lie to myself.
becuase i REALLY didnt want to be a chosen one.
i just wanted to be BASTEND.
so after like a month of teainig i stopped becuase i was convinced i was already amazing.
the only thing i really learned to do was
control how much pressure i made witht eh electricty, and how many Volts of it.
it still was REALLY unstable though.
i would stilla ccidently shock people.
and i couldnt touch anyone or anything without rubber on.
water... Nope. i couldnt be around it.
It was hard taking bathes...
JULY 20TH
It was like any other normal day.
Kind of strange though.
On July 20th the Chosen ones go through the Door. and Into Twilights Dawn.
It was morning. abot 10:00
And i was bored. I wanted to go drive somewhere.
Bastend- Mom, can i just take a Drive or?
Mom- Oh no, im taking the car later.
Bastend- Aww...
Mom- where you going?
Bastend- I dont know i just have a strange urge to walk somewhere.
Mom- listend, today is... where your going to... ell your going to Tiwlights Dawn. and I just wanted to tell you That i want you to make a LOT of friends! and bring them back here and we can have a Party. baby I love you
She made me bend down and she kissed my forehead,
Bastend- Thanks? i still dont believe thats the case... i mean a DOOR? really?> ive been walking throguh Doors ALL DAY LONG and im not in this TWILIGHTS dawn or whatever.
Mom- im just saying be careful okay sweety? and Im not goign to worry about you. becuase your going to be with friends.
Bastend- Im not going anywhere... Im jsut going on a stroll
Valca came down
Valca- Is bastend Leaving?
Bastend- No, bastend is going on a Walk and he'll be back.
Mom- Hes going to twilights dawn and make Friends! biggrin
Bastend- ....? your wierd mom.
Mom- OH! Bastend! I made you something!
Bastend- Huh? you did?
i was excited for my prize
she then handed me a box. and i opened it. and in it was a strange looking hood.
It looked like a Robin Hood thing.
It cut off right before my stomache
it was gray, with a black hood and a cross shape on it.
It had zippers on each side but one of the neatest looking things were the straps
It had three X shaped Straps.
they were almost a reddish orange
Bastend- wow... you made this?
Mom- Yeah... i stitched it together i know you like wierd things like this
Bastend- Thank you ma!
Mom- The... the X's... they
Bastend- hmm?
Mom- The X's are the three deadliest things you could have,
your Mind, your Body, and your Heart...
Bastend- thats cool i guess
i didnt quite get it...
Mom- You need to keep your Mind Sane and Positive, and keep your body strong. and always ALWAYS follow your heart Bastend.
Bastend- Okay
Mom- Dont let your heart break, becuase if It breaks, your mind and Body also break. Dont let your Body Break, or it will effect your Mind, and Heart. and Keep your mind Sane.. Becuase A bad mind effects the HEart, adn the Body.
Bastend- Yeah mom. Thanks smile
I hugged her.
I was walking out the Door
i walked by capulets car and i noticed Those
Giant Scissors in the Back of Capulet's car.
i forgot about them.
I decided to take them out. and just... play with them i guess.
i took them/ and they were so neat looking. I love quirky things Like that.
and so i just out them n the back of my hood
the straps held them in PERFECTLY.
so i jsut walked and walked and walked.
And before i knew it. i was lost
i felt kind of sad.
then i realized i was like a mile from smoke pony. s**t.
I wasnt supposed to be around here.
I Turned to leave but then something on the ground caught my eye,
i had to look at it.
It was a Door.
i walked up to it.
and examined it.
It was just a nrmal wooden door. on the Ground...
A Door on the ground?
Really?
so i just sat on it.
thinkign about how far ive gone from being a poor child who's ftaher would abuse.
I remembered a time when my dad actually liekd me. i was about 5
he loved me. i got along with him. but im assuming once he saw was "Chosen" he started to hate me.
the abuse began when i was about...oh 7 years old.
My brother and Mom finally hated him as i did.
It wasfun to bash on hi, with my family. haha
he was the center point of all our Jokes.
It was mean, but funny as hell.
I was so happy i was getting along with my Brother
He had much more freedom.
instead of focusing ALL HIS TIME on work. he was being a kid.
Playing Xbox, hanging with friends.
It wasnt fair HE had friends.
btu still I was so happy for him.
my mom
she was free. she got her own job in Dinero and was doing good.
Capulet? i dont know where she is.
but everything was good at the moment.
And My life was good.
I sat ont hat door thinking for about an hour or so.
And decided to leave.
But my hand Slipped.
I went to push myself up off the ground using the Knob when I Fell.
I Fell Into the Door that LEad to Twilights dawn.
and I Fell Into a Spin motion..
It was God Awful.
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