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Expecting to get in a bunch of trouble soon
Or maybe not
IDK
Depends on how this all plays out
Hope I don't ******** it up tomorrow
Gosh, I really hope I'm doing the right thing...
Just going to have to wait and see

My stories with Roxxane are getting annoying now, especially since I'm making connections all the time to real life.
Am I letting it influence it[my life]? Or are the just really, really weird coincidences?
Nothings going to happen, nothing better not happen.
I don't know what I would do with myself if I just ended up living a fictional story created by moi.

Ahaha.
I need to keep my 'personalities' in check, thats all. As in;
Max, stop trying to act cool, and stop working with Skylar.
Skylar, you don't really love him, and he doesn't love you. Get over yourself and think about the good things, not the things you know are just gonna ******** you over big time later.
And I do mean BIG TIME.
Ari, stop flirting so damn much. Ever heard of a (not so) little word called 'commitment'?
And Angel, stop being so damn depressed. Really, thats the most annoyings I think.

And to anyone thats read this the whole way, you're free to call me crazy. Some stuffs happened thats really gotten me out of it, and I'm fighting my 'inner demons' between making a really stupid, really, really bad choice (I know it but am still considering it, god how crazy am I?) and making another possibly really dumb choice (but will it make me happier?) and saying no to both of them and keeping things the way they are right now, even though things already sorta seem to be falling apart.
Maybe.
I might just be making myself believe that so I can go with the other two options.
UGH.
I really don't want to ******** this up you guys.
Buts its so... inviting.... appealing....
Exciting....


Someone shoot me now. I'm turning more into Ari and Skylar than I should, and knowing them (of course I know them, I created them!) this is no way going to end well.
But I'm going to have one hell of a time with it though.
;]
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If anybody read this all the way you deserve a cookie. Like seriously, go pat yourself on the back and go to the kitchen and steal a damn cookie.
(You can pretend its from me)