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And with that the child looked out to the world at the dark dark sky and asked why.
The sky seemed even darker than usual that night,and the child wondered if it was only her imagination.She lay back on the soft green grass of the park and pondered about the events the occurred earlier.
As she thought,the night grew darker and darker time and life slipped by.
Nothing seemed important anymore.She didn't want to leave this spot she was in,didn't want to deal with the rest of her world.She wanted to be alone,because it already seemed that way.And especially because of what happened when it,the sun,was out.
As she stayed alone,the darker it got darker,darker she wondered if the sun would ever rise as it grew darker."Why me....",she whispered soft and low in the air.It seemed to her that only all bad happened to her.Just when things were getting better...,she thought.The wind started to blow harder than it already was,but she didn't move.In fact,she didn't know when she would go back home.She didn't want to.She unzipped her jacket and pulled it off,putting it beside her.Thinking of all the bad things that had happened she slowly pulled out a small little knife and whispered.......,"I am never going home..." She sat up very slowly,and thought before she would act,like she always has done.No one cares about me.....no one would miss me...I would be forgotten in a matter of days....I can't take life anymore...This is it.....this....is it She tightened her grip on the small knife,and slowly moved it toward her left wrist.
Slowly,she cut her wrist,deeper and deeper she cut,blood gushed.Out the next day she was found.
She was found by the one who broke her heart only yesterday,and he regretted every thing.He regretted his existence.He knelt beside her,and wept until the EMTs wrestled him away."She didn't deserve this!It's my fault",he yelled repeatedly.He,and all her family and friends,watched as they put her in the back of an ambulance and drove away.None were crying.Just expressionless.
She was already dead when they picked her up.They all knew it.The one that had broken her heart did not want to believe it.He kept saying she is alive,she is alive. After him and the family was told she was gone,he went home and locked himself in his room.
He paced his room,frantic.My fault!She did this because of me!,he thought angrily.He thought of taking his life also,but quickly pushed the thought away as soon as it came.He couldn't do it,he couldn't sin.He wouldn't let her down.He quickly walked to his drawer beside his bed and pulled it open quickly.He knew what he could do.He resorted to reckless behavior.A week later,he was put in a mental institution across town.He was glad they put him in there.He felt like he belonged.
Though,he felt a piece of himself missing.He felt someone else belonged here with him,in his life.He thought of her again.He tried not to think of her.He pushed her out of his head.And now,somehow,she's crept her way back in.He always knew it in his soul,that they should have been together,and he shouldn't have done what he had done.He wished to take it back.The deed would not be done,though.He could not take back the pain he caused her,the anguish,the heart break.He couldn't take it anymore.Finally,this is his breaking point.He reached for the phone,knowing he isn't allowed to use it,and called her parents.He asked them if they could send photos of her to him,as many as they could.Her mother had answered,and she asked why he would want them.He responded,"I know I have anguished her purposely.I've said things carelessly,only saying what I could think of at the moment to try and make everything better.But I made it worse. It's all my fault she has done this.Mine.If I can not be with her,I want memories of her.Please,send me the photos.Here,in this place I'm in,I want to try and undo my burden.Let me do so." There was a long silence.Then the mother finally spoke."If you wanted to undo your burden you should have done it while she was here.Or rather,you shouldn't have burdened her at all." She spoke bitterly then the line clicked dead.He put the phone down slowly.
As he now lay on his bed,he could only think of her and noting else.He had loved her and now she was gone,never to return.Her mother was right and he knew it.He should have never done what he did.
He just wanted to look at her all day,all night,if not touch her and have the sense of her here.He didn't know what to do anymore.He couldn't think of anything else to do.All he knew is that he wanted her,and he wanted to apologize non-stop.So he just lay there,not knowing what to do,and the girl's heart he broke on the mind.
He cried nonstop.He missed her so much he knew this was never going to stop and that only one way to stop the pain of her not being there he had to see her.He did not care how,but he had to.
It would be worth is now.It would be worth the sin,it would be worth the pain.He didn't care about going to hell.He would see her there if she was there.You couldn't possibly go to heaven if you killed yourself,correct?It would be worth it,to see her,to be with her,to feel her,touch her,hear her lovely voice.She was the only one he really cared for anyway.He smiled to himself at the new excitement he felt. He got up and went to the kitchen of the Institute.
There,he started looking through the kitchen looking for anything that would do the job.He looked until he found a knife,then as he lifted the knife,he whispered."I am coming.I will be there with you soon,my love.
He smiled.And,instead of the wrist,he wanted to go straight for his heart.He pictured her and smiled even wider.Then he struck,and fell to the ground.He died smiling.
The next day on the front page of the news paper,there was a huge photo of him in the article.It said he had stabbed himself in the heart and that his therapist had no clue why he did this.He said the only thing he ever talked about was his ex girlfriend that had killed herself because of him.Their funerals were on the same date.Rest in peace...

They were buried beside each other and on their grave stones it said "Even in death,they will always love each other."