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"Am I a good person?"
Thats all I could ask.
The answer cut into my skin
like shards of broken glass.

I can't do this.
I won't hurt you.
I'm hurting but I am standing
I promise i'll make it through.

This pain I can endure.
Although it lasts a long time.
I hope you remember me after all
because this isn't my last rhyme.

I turned out to be a monster
but it's time to end the show.
I finally realized the damage I've done
when the answer to my question was "No."



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this is supposed to be a journal...so im gonna write


I don't really know why i act the way I do.....but i do......and im sorry that i hurt people......i ruin lives.....people shouldn't stop to say hi to me, b/c i just hurt...and complicate..............i never will be able to understand myself....its just strange.....

.....im over my ex....i've known tht without a doubt for the last week....but there is this wristband....tht i couldnt take off sence the day she gave it to me......yesterday i decided to get rid of it....but i mentally couldnt take it off.....so i cut it......and then i locked myself in my room and cried............i miss her more than words will know.....but i cant hurt her anymore...as im writing this im crying b/c i rlly dont know........she doesnt care about me anymore...once she left i purposely pushed her away....just to hurt myself.....b/c i didnt deserve a friend like her.....

i can write in here now tht i know tht no one will read this anymore...so thts what I will do...write...describe poums...personal life..but thts what i will do..........write...it what keeps me sane now tht shes gone.....

i didnt love her...i was IN love with her....which is like a guys nightmare...b/c you dont fall for a person unless u know they will catch you.....and i fell...and crashed.....

.....i talk to much....so im gonna leave...i will talk laterz......i promise you tht....if ihave learned one thing...forever and always doesnt exist....