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I am in a fantastic mood today.

Clarissa: Sweet!

Yeah!

Emily: Strangely, so am I. Hah! ^_^

Clarissa: D8 D-Did you just smile?

Emily: Yes. So what?

Emily's learned a valuable lesson and has decided to live her life to the fullest. This includes her gettin' some brass and asking Cross out. Right?

Emily: Yes.

Clarissa: Awesome! And you, Clarie?

I'm just happy that I had an epiphany today from listening to a song. I was on youtube, looking at videos and went to the homepage. There was an uploaded video for "Believe". I was all like, "I haven't heard that since '07."

So I clicked on it, listened to it and like that, my depression went away. I had realized, this song was what Nick was and is. This was what made me fall inlove with him and this is what has me still so very inlove with him. I just had forgotten that.

I felt what I felt those years ago. I felt happy, content, hopeful and inlove again. He hasn't changed. I was the one that changed because I let my insecurities get in the way. I'll never let that happen ever again. Trust me, now that I realize everything that I've done to change and have successfully reprogrammed myself, I know I'll never go back to it again. *scoff* Doesn't mean I'm gonna take Heather's s**t still. But ya know.

Clarissa: By God, my creator is back! Hallelujah!

Diana: Yay!

Emily: Um, yay? Yeah, yay.

Adelise: This you is nice.

Yeah, I knew I was still here somewhere. It only took a good look at myself, a song and Nick to bring it back out. Keeping up with my, "Everything is gonna be alright" mentality Nick had instilled into me before, is gonna be a little tricky though. I decided that the best thing I could possibly do is trust and love Nick then believe that he's never gonna disappear. I did it before. I feel great this way.

Just listen to him, try things out. Like he said, it's not gonna kill me to try.

Clarissa: Might kill ya of embarrassment though!

Yeah..but I'll get over it. I want to be the Clarie that Nick had fallen inlove with again. I feel like her again, but somehow I still am a little, teensy bit, insecure. It's lingering.

Clarissa: Well don't push yourself to being completely someone else. Just believe that everything will be alright with you and Nick. That's all ya gotta do.

Right. ^_^