Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

I hate drama and drama queens even more, but I really want to type this story out xD.

(*C- the boy I like)
This boy (C) and I still like each other even though we're not together (for good reasons), but ever since, girls have been crushing on him majorly. Well, this one girl in particular was a pretty good friend of mine that I hadn't known too long. She lied to me that she didn't like C that and she would talk trash about both of us behind our backs.
She's surprise kissed him... 3 or 4 times now to the point that he's annoyed by it. He tried being friends, but after that 3rd or 4th time, he doesn't even want to deal with her. and I can't blame him.
This is the part I laugh at: C came over to my house a few days ago and all we really did was lie in my floor, cuddle, sleep (he did anyway x3) and talk. He told me that there was still something between us and that he would like to rebuild our relationship, but if we did now it would bring up some painful memories and he wouldn't be able to heal correctly either. But he would look down at me and then shove his face into the pillow saying how he was restraining not to kiss me.
In my mind, part of me wanted to go yell at the (annoying slut girl "L" wink and say, "HA! you have to force your self on him, but all I have to do is lie here with him and HE wants to kiss ME."
but, that's not me. I don't like to cause drama and C isn't property or some kind of prize to me. He someone that I gave my heart to and planned an entire future with. He was the reason I smiled and is the reason I'm here. Yes, we screwed up a bit, but things have only gotten worse since then. But according to C, God doesn't want us together right now, it's not our time (and it's supported by the church to date around before you settle), but I'm placeing my faith in that God wants him to date around and hopefully he'll realise that we were meant to be together heart