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It's you!!
They say that 'hate' is a strong word,
But for you, it's not strong enough,
You ripped my heart out of my chest,
Cut it up into a millions pieces,
And spat on my whole life,
Walked all over my self respect,
And hypnotised all of my thoughts,
You took all of the power from me,
Until you knew I was just nothing,
You put yourself in my shoes,
And took over my being, my life,
You totally controlled all of me,
You knew it, you loved it,
You always got what you wanted,
But it was never enough for you,
So you just took more and more of me,
You totally changed who I was,
Altered how I thought about myself,
You melted away all of my self belief,
Threw away my confidence,
You caused me to alienate myself,
I lost my friends, I was your possession,
It was like you were holding a gun to my head,
Obey your every command or you'd pull the trigger,
You've totally ruined my future,
Because now I can't change anything,
You were who I saw when I looked in the mirror,
You still are the voices that live inside my head,
You're the nightmares when I close my eyes,
You're the reason for the scars on my arm,
That remind me of when I lost everything,
And how I'm still not strong enough to get it back,
No matter how hard I try, it's too much,
Day in, day out, it's all the same,
A constant fight to try and be happy,
And when I am, you come crawling back,
The reason why my whole life is a blur,
The reason why I'm soaked in self-hatred,
The reason why I'm scared all the time,
The reason why I feel ugly, fat and worthless,
The reason why I'm angry and depressed,
The reason why I cry when I'm alone,
The reason why I will never be good enough,
The reason why I did those stupid things,
The reason why I thought about ending it all,
The reason why I will never get better,
It's you.
 iSnow Panda · Thu May 13, 2010 @ 10:54pm · 0 Comments |
