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my mom told me to be quiet in the car. never tell me that. my thoughts lead me astray.i was thinking, i'm miles and miles away from my true love, and i can't do s**t about it.it really made me almost cry. He is'nt even considered my bf anymore. it goes deeper than that. this is gonna sound stupid, but all the owl city songs, i think, the singer sings the exact things jasper would sing to me. the songs fit the voice, and the voice is jasper. i think about him 40 minutes out of every hour. I really can't live without him. my favorite owl city song makes me cry, because it sooo reminds me of me and him. it's vanilla twilight. i have a month and a half to spend every moment i can with jessica. in august i'm moving. not going to the same school as her anymore. we are sisters in all but blood. how can anyone tear us apart? without her, it's like someone has ripped up everything that i live for.i have listened to her, helped he with her problems, and loved her. she's had no one to love her and care about her her whole life, exept for me. how can anyone, ANYONE, tear us apart? i love her so much! i put so much of myself into her, every minute and every ounce of energy i had leftover to take care of her. when she isn't even my bff. she's my sister in all but blood. She's listened to me, cared about and for me, and even been there the one time i cried.i've poured everything i ever had into jasper and jessica, all of my love, compassion, energy, and time. and now i won't be able to see either of them. Jessica holds me together when i'm upset, and i hold her together when she's upset. who will hold me together? give me strength? give me what i need to stand up and say, the hell with you! i'm doing things my way! We belong together! jasper, jessica and i can't function without eachother.*sigh* this is a long entry, but i'm getting out everything i've held in and needed to tell someone. I've gotta admit, it really helps.
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