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I gotta say, this week has been a really weird one.
Sonic booms..I've been having weird dreams lately..and my feelings are acting kind of .. odd and i'm trying to figure out what to do with them. I don't want to end up doing something stupid and ending up hurting myself. I don't want any other emotional pain, tyvm. gonk

Actually, this whole summer was pretty different than the other ones. I mean yeah, it had the same kind of stuff..being bored to death, wanting to kill myself over boredom or some depressing reason, staying on the computer all day.. xD

Some small differences are that I'm babysitting xD i didn't go anywhere (not even a road trip!) and I went to a water park without a friend and it MAJORLY SUCKED. Also my first summer being single since 5th grade. Sounds sad once I think about it. xD

This summer was a bit of a huge emotional trial for me. I mean ever since it started
my feelings were going through so much stress and I went through so many tests
(lulz that's what I call them) and my feelings are still being tested right now. Despite the living hell it was, I am thankful for this summer. It has taught me so many things. I lost a friendship, I grew way closer to other friends, and I met a couple good ones. I'm in a position now when I think 'life is good'. I know bad things
happen and I rant about them occasionally, but overall life is pretty great.

Bah I rambled again.. Oh well, it felt good expressing my thoughts again. xD