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Well this birthday was a COMPLETE and TOTAL bust. T'was suppose to be a "happy" one but in the end it crashed and burned big time. I didn't mind my birthday on the weekday, it wasn't a big deal to me. Unless i'm working and hour after school; total bummer. during the hour prior to working, it was spent with some of my friends, it was alright until they say happy birthday. That song or any that relates to it makes me very sad but also angry and afraid. Must be because i've never celebrated it as most normal children would have. This kind of spoil my mood for the rest of the evening. Working was quiet after a repremand from something really foolish and then went home. Went on gaia making me feel a little better then went to sleep. All WOULD be well IF my MOTHER didn't call this morning:

~start~
mom: h-heeeeeerrrroooooooo!
tori: _ _;;; yes mom i'm here
mom: why didn't you come home now!!??!!
tori: it could be because i'm working and i'm at school
mom: then quit and study harder and come home!
tori: mom, i WANT to work and go to school
mom: ....come home permanantly?
tori: ....no ...mom ...you know my answer
mom: b-but-
tori: i have school now, talk to you later
~end~

Just to let you know, this is a HIGHLY undertoned conversation. She and I never could see at eye to eye and I've gave up on try to be leaniant with her. In other words, we don't get along and can't seem to be calm around each other. I try to be calm to her but after a while she start to push me buttons, then we tend to start raising our voice until i notice and find an excuse to hang up. I'd like a nice relationship with my mom but i know the less we see of each other the better off we both really are.

And that is me birthday. *blows a noisy kazzu with no enthusiasum*