pain.pain.pain.pain.pain.pain.pain.pain.pain.pain.pain.pain.pain.pain.pain.pain.pain.painpain.pain.pain.painpain.pain.pain.pain
now i know..what is this that i feel..
yes it's pain..and it's one of the feelings i hated the most...
why??coz' it grips my heart..
it just came suddenly to me..
he knows how i feel for him..
and thought that it's already clear between the two of us..that we can't go better than friends..
coz' he likes someone more than me..
and i get very jealous whenever i see them around..
they could laugh at everything..what a sight it was..
but they don't notice that whenever i look at them..i feel very jealous of their closeness..
and i would sometimes think..how lucky she was..
wishing that i am in her place..
but i couldn't be because we are two different person you see??
maybe you would not realize or imagine how i really feel..
to see them happy is really great..but in spite that all i am still hurt..
i hope feelings like this just easily goes away..like a wind that just passed by..
blew on you for a second and left without noticing it..
this feeling might be funny for you..
but for me..it's really nice that i have a journal..i can write what i feel..that i can't tell anybody..
do you know how i feel whenever he would mention the girl's name to me..
it's like that we would not have a conversation if it weren't for the girl we are talking about..
and i would feel he would get bored whenever he talks to me..
he just texted because the girl has not replied to him..
so to relieve his boredom he would text me..
knowing that i would urgently reply..
it's true i am hust because i am just an option..
how funny..i should not be feeling this..
coz' i could just simply forget about him..i just don't know why i cannot..
do i really cannot??or i still just don't want to let go..
even though the truth is already in front of me..
for now that's all that i have to say..
maybe after two or more days..i will be over it..
whoever you are who is reading this..THANKS FOR DROPPING BY..
leave a comment if you want..just wanna know your reaction about this..
_The truth hurts..the lies worse.._
 -_-HaNa-Ni-aRaSHi-_- · Tue Sep 28, 2010 @ 01:04pm · 0 Comments |
