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M'kay, people are posting journals lately, so I decided to too. ((haha, tu-tu XD))
Not much is going on. I have another -checks- three or four weeks till I get a day off of school. Yippee. Spanish is flipping hillarious and Health is my 'meditation' class. ((all we do is take notes, tests, and watch movies. seriously)) Lunch is getting better since Stephanie and I are learning to actually have a conversation with each other. XD she's a really nice girl ((well, woman, technically. she just turned 1 cool ) and we have a lot in common as far as personality goes. Civics is... indescriable. The people are interesting, Ms. Peterson is epic, but the material strays a lot. One day I'm interested, the next I'm surpirsed I don't fall asleep right there at my desk in the back of the class. Algebra is tragic. I've never enjoyed math. Even as a little kid when my dad would have me do 'math facts'. -_- I'll admit, they did help me in school, but I hate math.
There was my description of school. So don't ask.
I haven't been doing much lately. Mostly just sitting up in my room with my music, dancing around like I'm crazy. ((gosh, I never realized how little I danced before, especially in public.)) I watch classic movies I loved as a kid on YouTube when the internet is being nice. I've been reading Wuthering Heights. It's peeked my interest again as the story picks up, but I still don't recommend it as a leisure read. I'm reading it ((and other classics)) so I don't have to worry so much if it's required for school.
I've noticed recently that my friends have certain things that are 'theirs'. Caroline has band, Deanna has choir, that sort of thing. So I started thinking, what's mine? Do I have anything that I do, to where that becomes all there is? So I started going through my hobbies...
Reading
Writing
Dancing
Singing
Photography
Scuba Diving...
and then it hit me. I don't have something that's 'mine'. I adopt different things as mine, but none of them really are. Reading allows me to escape the tremors of every day bores, writing gives expression, and chance to earn understanding, ((I have a quote about that XD)) dancing has allows been something I do, even as a kid. I remember being little and doing 'circle dance' in the living room with my family. I took ballet for a few years, but after that it was just something I did alone, or with my family. Everything fades away, and nothing else matters when I dance. I guess that's why I find it so damn embarrasing to dance with my friends and in public. Singing was always just something I did. Talking is just so boring, so I sing. ^^ Photographry... I don't know, it's something different. I'm obsessed with photos, and can't get rid of any of them. Maybe that's a sign that I should get checked for OCD. XD
Then there's something really special. SCUBA Diving. I've tried to tell my friends about, but I can tell from the look on their faces that they don't grasp the other-worldliness that comes with strapping on that tank and getting in the water. It's not like 'getting back to nature' where people go out into the jungle in search of prized tigers. It's not soaring in the air beside the birds. When you step into the water, you are the alien species. These animals have been there, surviving without us, our techonology, or even our air, for centuries. They couldn't care less about who we are, where we come from, or what we do. I guess that's why I always love the water. Fish don't pass judgement, they don't even bother with you. I've always marveled at that beauty and grace underwater creatures have as they glide through the water. We could never fully join that world, and I guess that's what captivates me. The other thing about SCUBA diving, is that you can have the cardiologists next to the garbage man. It truly doesn't matter where you come from. That is your buddy, that person is responsible for you, as you are them. No one's talking about what they did over the weekend, or where they're going when the boat gets back to the dock. No, we're switching stories about past trips, places we'd like to dive, kicking around ideas about diving in outer space. ((hey, the did find that planet that seemed bit too much like Earth XD)) All that matters is this dive, this group of people, this experience. Everything else is forgotten for the moment, truly and irrevocably. And, just like I can't understand Caroline's obsession with band, I somehow doubt they can understand my love for the ocean.
Whoa, that was... wow. I think I should stop now.
>.<
~DCF
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 decz22 · Sun Feb 20, 2011 @ 03:33am · 1 Comments |
