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last night was the worst night i thing will ever happen to me in my life. you know how a mother is supposed to be all caring and crap. love you no matter what? all that bs. well, that will never be a mom in my life that is like that to me.
first off to know how my mother is you have to know she has been in 4 marriages. all dushbags. one abuser, one drunk, one cheater, and one of all three. my sister is from the drunk. i'm from the cheater. the next thing you have to know is that my cheater turned her in to the cold heartless person she is today. (my sister says that is the biggest lie, but idk who to believe anymore). so because my mother is a heartless B*TCH she hates me as i am.
i am your normal wierdo. and i'm not afriad to be one. at my school all the people like me get picked on, but all the "cool" people have STDs. haha what a crock! in my third block a girl with herpies picks on me, a gay guy, and an awesome bi chick. the girl that picks on us also has kids. i don't have STDs. i go out for plays. i don't believe that people should look on eachothers out side to accept eachother. i have a boyfriend of 7 months going on 8. if she is jealous then she can just suck it. funny enough my mother wants me to be like one of those sluts that try to hard to fit in. blaugh like i would ever do that.
but last night....something happened. i was trying to get something up on the top shelf of our pantry and i couldn't reach. (i'm 5'3". you get the picture) my mother started making fun of me because i was acting "dramatic". i don't like it when people make fun of me. i never have. it makes me feel so stupid. like i can't do anything.
so....i yelled at her to shut up. cry people do it everyday. we are so closed minded to the rest of the world that we can't hear eachother and i knew if i didn't yell she wouldn't hear me and go on making fun of me, but i never thought she would hit me.
because i yelled, she hit me. at the corner of my mouth is where her first blow went. and i hit her back. i was always taught that if i was ever hit to hit back. but she kept on hitting me. i turned away to protect my face. she hit me on my head and the back of my neck. i can touch places where she hit and it hurts.
all the hits where open handed and after that i told my cousin who told me that it was my fault. what? how is it my fault that she teases me. i have told her before that i don't like it. i get bullied everyday of my life since kindergarden. why would i just let her walk all over me like that?
i told my boyfriend and also told him that after she beat me she band him from the house. i smiled when he said, "the f*ck she will." can you see why i love him? i already know that he will be over here when he wants to come. even if i say no he will still come over here.
so i'm just telling you this sad little thing because i really want to know, is it my fault or is this child abuse? (i would charge her right now, but she left no bruses stare ) so what can i do? do you even believe me?