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For the last four years, my family and I have moved all over the usa, seeing some great sites, but also some horrible fights.
This last move destroyed my family, my brother and his wife moved out, my mother and father are giving up a 27 year marrage, my younger brother was put into a hospital from the stress, and I'm left to clean the mess up. for the last few years my mother and I watched my older brother's kids, so he and his wife could be out all day and come home well after the kids were asleep.

In the last few weeks my mother has stopped watching the kids, she was about to try and kill herself from the stress and the fact she raised her children. She wasn't ready to do it again, so then I was stuck watching their kids, but over the last week my mother and her friends noticed I was walking home and hiding in the shower crying my eyes out when I was chased out of his home, by him or his wife. it was a mile walk home in the heat, I have a medical condition, I don't know what it's called, but my internal temperture is way off. I can't keep cool in 80 degrees, so my body cooks. I know it sounds weird, but it's true. I almost didn't make it home yesterday, it was 90 degrees here. MY mother was out of town and didn't find out yesterday until one of her friends told her I walked home, when my brother was supposed to give me a ride home since it was hot. I also don't eat much anymore, too busy with the kids. She told me if I kept this pattern, she would place me in a hospital in a week. She doesn't want to see me destroy myself, neither do her friends.

I have been banned from babysitting, only today was I allowed, that is why I'm online today, my pc was fried and he took his back.
my brother was put in jail for a stupid reason, in jan his wife had a put a restraining order against him, it was dropped in may, someone reported him and he was jailed last night, he was released this morning but can't be near his wife until he can prove it was dropped. so I have to watch kids for this to get done. Hope this clear up soon