It breaks you HEART when people you know become people you knew;
When you can walk right past someone as if they were never a HUGE part of your life...
Your heart breaks and your head aches,
And you feel like an a** for wanting them to feel the same way you do...
It sucks to know that person is going to be fine without you,
But you know you will never be the same without them...
You used to be able to talk for hours on the phone,
And now you can't even look at each other in the damn eye...
It completely breaks your heart to know good things change
even though you don't want them to...
What do you do when you already did everything,
When you were so damn close to perfection, but it still wasn't enough...
How are you supposed to react when he or she acts like nothing ever happened,
When he or she treats you like if you were friends...
What do you do when you don't wanna be friends
Because it reminds you of what you used to be, more...
Why do you become the a*****e for wanting him/her to feel what you feel,
To feel just as pathetic, anxious, and confused as you do...
It hurts to know you wait around all day for a text or call or even an e-mail,
HOPING that they regret ending it and beg for another chance...
And it kills you to know that if they did want to comeback,
No matter how pathetic or how stupid you feel you will take them back in a heartbeat...
And the worst feeling of all is not knowing what you did to make them leave...
You spend all day staring at the ceiling replaying every moment of your time together,
Trying to catch whatever it was you "did" even when you know it's not your fault...
And when you do this three or four times and you get to the point where you can't think anymore,
You pick up the phone to call him/her but know that you'll just look pathetic so you don't call...
Instead you lay back down, bury your face in your pillow,
And SCREAM your heart OUT!!!
Tears start to run down your face,
You think of who to call to make you feel better,
But you know the only person who can make you laugh is him/her,
So you cry, you cry so hard until it hurts, until you can't breath until you can't see until you can't think...
And after all this you somehow still find the strength to throw on that fake smile,
Stand in front of everyone and be able to say, "I'm Okay"...
And no one even takes a second look, cuz no one notices
And you think you have fooled everyone...
But in your heart you know the truth,
That you lost someone very special...
But now that person is just a hope, a dream, a memory.
Cuz know he/she is gone;
And there was nothing, absolutely nothing you could have done to stop it.
This is the lost serenade of a weeping soul...
The memory of someone special...
The Sorrow of our conflicted minds...
This is the song of a broken heart...
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