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Report · 11:36pm
OMG UR ALIVE I LOVE!
YOU!
(lol typo.

Report · 11:37pm
yeah. I almost died today.

Report · 11:37pm
i missed you :'(
what happened?

Report · 11:37pm
Miss you too.
Biked all the way to nicoles house in clovis. she lives in the rich white neighborhood close to the mountains

Report · 11:37pm
i got super worred today out of nowwhere.

Report · 11:38pm
and pass the loops of the airport.
6miles

Report · 11:38pm
i felt like you werent here anymore. i felt so sad i texted chai to see if she had herd from you
oh cool!
that sounds fun

Report · 11:39pm
that b***h heard from me several times. she wont even reply. i only bug her cus of the apartment. i texted her and all the stuff. hope its done with. idk.

Report · 11:40pm
so you went to o see her but she ignored you?

Report · 11:41pm
no. i emailed her on fb,text,and call up sanders to know her "problem" at home and the pg and e account. w/e. she'll deal with it. not my problem if she doesnt care as much as i do. ******** her~~~~

Report · 11:41pm
lol so how was your week?(almost a week since we talked)

Report · 11:43pm
it was just 2 days. lol. as far as i can remember. unless someone ******** up with the time and day again. lol.

Report · 11:43pm
it felt like a week. i could of swore it was a week.

Report · 11:43pm
sad 

Report · 11:43pm
wtf is wrong with me.XD i need you in my life to keep me on track XD

Report · 11:44pm
hehe.
sorry hun.
but i did warn you.
sorry it felt longer

Report · 11:44pm
smile  its alright i just got a soden felling of dread this afternoon and i could help but think something horable happened.

Report · 11:46pm
Im safe. nicole's place is so far away. i wont be going there for a goddamn while. took my way home with her directions and bam. i was alright. it connected to a familiar place. the main road to ashleys home and i just went straight to cedar and home. it was easy as cake. but so bright,and windy. not a good wind. heavy and hot instead.

Report · 11:47pm
awe .... wait you said bam twice now, lol did you or did you hit something?

Report · 11:50pm
i did twice? no, idk. Probably because I just felt bad for Bam mangera and ryan dunn. On the time of dunn's death, he became angry out of no where and started bashing things and then it all came into being that, that was the time dunn died. i saw his interview. i kinda cried inside. a few days ago, i went to the library and read bam's autobiography about his skateboard career. mainly pictures. and calenders of his writing and art and what he wrote on them. idk. bam. maybe an unconcious thought for now. i didnt get hit.
and then to hear of ryan's death. kinda awkward. scared me still.
but no, im safe. xoxo

Report · 11:51pm
biggrin  im so happy your save. biggrin  thats all i want to say.

Report · 11:52pm
wink  im happy you're safe as well.
was gonna go swimming today...but yeah. i didnt bring extra clothes for nicole's pool and it was new still and they still needed to add stuff to the pool.

Report · 11:53pm
awe i bet that would f been nice, being in a pool an what not.

Report · 11:54pm
Yeah... what have you been up to?

Report · 11:54pm
s**t, ... i cant give you a straght answer XD
i dont really recal how long its beeen.

Report · 11:55pm
...what do you remember?

Report · 11:58pm
i remember saying ttyl after youu said you wernt going to be on for a while and i started to wonder how long that was.i didnt sleep well that night, then the second day i did my usall and tried to keep reminfd my self that you willl be alright, your a smart woman you can take care of your self. and what seamed like 5 days of falling asleoo (i fell asleep 5 times) i got a horable felling, just this monsterous felling that you ... well you arnt going to be breathing ever again. and my heart sank and i've been worried all day.
thats about all i can remember.
i know i've had lots of ceral since we said ttyl ... i just dont know how much XD

Report · 12:00am
See. you did remember. dont worry hun. i wont do it again...Unless I needed time by myself and I'm more stressed than usual. But I dont see that happening anytime in the future.

Report · 12:01am
im all down for you takeing the time to chill. it doent bother me, i just had a felling was all thats why im so panicked today.
i understand that you need space, every one does once and a while.

Report · 12:03am
come here and lemme grab you. that's why im in love with you.
you're so considerate and kind

Report · 12:04am
smile  im trying to make sure my felling is considerate, and not overprotective. god im hopeing im not that type.

Report · 12:05am
razz  I wouldn't mind, as I'm finding out for myself now. Wierd. I sometimes like it.

Report · 12:06am
yeah, sometimes its called for. smile  just not all the time XD

Report · 12:07am
I dont mind dennis. well most of the times i dont mind.
chillax and ... lemme drool all over you!

Report · 12:08am
lol i thought that said climax.

Report · 12:08am
it does look like it huh. lol
so..wanna know how my day went?
besides the nicole part.

Report · 12:09am
biggrin  ofcourse dear! spill it.

Report · 12:10am
well. i got out of the house around 1pm. my dad ask where i was going for once. lol. and i dont remember much or even how i got there. but i was suppose to meet nicole at fresno city college. somehow, with my mad memory. i made it there.
and i was suppose to meet her by the book store. ask this highschool student girl, as i soon found out and we converse as she led me to the bookstore.
and we parted ways. a nice convo though.
and then i went inside the bookstore to ask for the time. the ppl there were nice. ^^ wierd that this older lady was working there. at ucd. no one old works at the bookstore. only students. lol
and then i came out and saw amy. my friend from elementary school.
wierd. we talked and i kinda rode my bike on campus and the campus was so small!
******** i knew it by heart now.
and then i went back to the bookstore and waited outside for nicole and she comes over.
we went to the bus station and the bus comes immediatedly. (it was a one hour bus stop ride. thank god we made it)
she put my bike on the ramps and idk how to do it still and then hers. we deposited 1.25 to the coin slot and it took us 40 minutes to get to her place.
on the way, the bus driver went to taco bell and i told her about our student drivers at ucd and how during spring break this girl just hopped off of the bus becus it was spring break and for the next bus driver to come and drive.
and i also saw david's friend's gf. and she remembered me and told me that david might leave next week or stay for the whole summer. i met her the last time i saw david at the canal. lol.
and then i also saw sung say "Houa" at fcc. but that was earlier. lol. wierd.
seeing ppl.
and then we managed to hit her place.
arrived at her place, i meant
and she cooked hamburger helper for me and we watched, friends,the office,
raymond,and 70's show.
and stephy and josh came afterwards.
and they were really nice to me.
and everytime everyone ask me "how was davis" i just kinda freeze. so much as happened. but they smile at what i tell about you!! lol!!
josh was kind and stephy had her tourettes going on again and it was quite well until i had to leave 30 minutes later at 7pm.
my friends always carried me. so josh picked me up off the ground and outside nicoles room, where we were at. and close the door. then josh and nicole were telling each other to go to the corner and time out. lol. i said goodbye. had a good talk with nicoles dad. lol. his leg was so red. like he been kicked but he said it was sun damaged. lol
and then biked my way home with nicoles verbal instructions.
and made it in less than an hour.
dying of the heat and sun. ******** the sun. it was bright.
and yeah. i came back. watched wipeout
and the next show and was gonna get online, but feel asleep and wen i realized it
i got up and told my littlelittle brother to get off because he exceeded his hours on the comp. and
realized that i should go on fb.
yeah.
my day.

Report · 12:23am
smile  that sounds awesome. except for the sun anyway. .... and the wait. ... and the wind. lol

Report · 12:23am
Yeah breezy goodness. not at all. it was warm and thick.

Report · 12:24am
giggidy.
;D
so you didnt eat at all today?

Report · 12:25am
umm. i made pan fried fish talapia today. it was good. the batter my mom buys is amazing. idk, you dont like fish fillets.
it was in the morning
and then nicole fed me
so yeah.
she can cook. it was good.
rice, enchilada meat, with tortillas chips and cheese and sour cream.

Report · 12:27am
ooo sounds yummy.

Report · 12:28am
yeah. i dont eat much in the summer. pixes of me are up tho. wink  "recent pics" albulm. see me and jameel and carl's ex. lol. it was before the whole library carl vs. jameel ww2 incident.

Report · 12:29am
lol
... she looks ...no im not going to say it

Report · 12:29am
you know what i asked carl before i met her?

Report · 12:30am
?

Report · 12:30am
(btw, its a wig. you can tell by the front hairline)
umm i asked him..
if she was pretty and he nods no. he says he goes for the girls with personality but ..to me. idk about their personality. he mention something about angela, the nontalkative sam and his recent ex. and i mention that he better get a better gf next time with brains and all and he was like...I'm so planning to. loll.
just a conversation we had.


lol ... the man cant piture his dream girl. he watces to much anime,, it clowds his mind.
wink  i found mine.

Report · 12:35am
lmao. he wants someone asian and keeps mentioning this asian girl i know from a play at mclane and saying that she liked him. (its false info from her cus she'll never date a black guy and her family is more traditional than mines...) but he keeps mentioning it and i keep dying inside because she lied to him and i cant tell him honestly. this boosts his confidence. but anywho, he wants an asian girl.
aww thank you tho hun. that was sweet.

Report · 12:36am
yep lol as i said he watches to much anime.

Report · 12:38am
=_= he and jameel. always talking about those things i dont understand and then when they step inside kevin's house they were like "so asian" "i feel out of place". well, ******** should not feel like it if they actually know about the asian culture.
lol. its okay tho. i just lol'ed.

Report · 12:38am
LOL!!

Report · 12:38am
stupid americans.
including me.

Report · 12:38am
lol.

Report · 12:39am
and jameel even insisted if kev's sis was hot so he can get a chance with her. i glared at him..because she had kids and a husband and was older and all that. it was rude. lol
and just before we stepped into the house. lo
l

Report · 12:40am
: yep id expect him to say something like that. i woulda smacked him.

Report · 12:41am
lol. plus he keeps mentioning oh...blah blah blah. i have a gf. i cant do things. i gotta watch out. and then that comment about her sister was out of line. but idgaf. wink  not my problem. ppl are just lame. especially dating a girl on gaiaonline.
my opinion.
i should talk about something else.
=_=
i talk too much
and it leads to bad things
lol

Report · 12:42am
smile  lol no you dont talk to much lol recently every thing get reverted back to that for somereason lol.

Report · 12:42am
yeah.
ugh
oh yeah. it was those pics
ahaha
srry :;(
:'(

Report · 12:43am
lol why dont you start a convo?
lol its fin der i dont mind,.

Report · 12:43am
what happened when u talked with chai?

Report · 12:45am
... she said she talk to you 3 days ago. then gave me jen's nmber, i was going to text her whe i saw i have 2 new pm on gaia. was like " OMGGGG!!!!!!!!! SHES ON!!!!!!!!!!" then jumped on fb.

Report · 12:47am
lol. omg.i realize i gotta save some money for food at the apartment. i wont have money until september! =_= but yeah. hopefully they arent being lazy and not working on the apartment pg and e thing. not my problem when i dont have paperwork given to me.
but okie dok.
im online.
lol

Report · 12:48am
lol
convo?
hunny are you there?

Report · 12:51am
yep. i saw "lol". and knew that you had more to say.

Report · 12:52am
nope XD.

Report · 12:52am
i dont respond to lol, tho. u know that. thats how the conversation dies.

Report · 12:53am
i know, i would like it if youstarted a convo.
(convosation)

Report · 12:54am
srry i've been only listening this whole time.

Report · 12:54am
lol no you were talking about your day early

Report · 12:54am
i was being sarcastic.

Report · 12:54am
razz 

Report · 12:55am
fine. fine.

Report · 12:55am
... lol fine then.

Report · 12:55am
what?
go one
on

Report · 12:57am
i woke up aound 10ish and had ma ceral. got oon the comp, i've been adicted to D&D reently i want to play so bad, looking online for a way for us to play if you can. or some random a** person. and serfen the net to do so. lol theres a thing online for $10 for a a magazzine substricton, plus a lot of tool for playing. i want a debit card, ... kinda. and yeah thats all i ben doing recently.
lol thats my day.

Report · 12:59am
Debit cards are evil. Dont get them until you get a good paying job. I see. not a bad day.
Did you enjoy it?
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Your chat message wasn't sent because Dennis Tudor is offline.
Dennis is offline.
with bike i mite add.

Report · 1:45am
how much is the bus fare?

Report · 1:48am
$5
but i could talk to kevin about the cheapest way, hes cool like this.

Report · 1:49am
uh. just hold off a bit. idk what to think right now. gotta get the money first somehow. yeah. then we can go into details.

Report · 1:50am
well souldnt you think about the details b4 you get the money? it seams more likely to work because your working with a acutal fact, not a guess-tamation.

Report · 1:51am
idk. i think my way is how i usually do things. but okie dok. go on..

Report · 1:52am
no its fine. it just seamed the best route to take. but but all means ill just shut up biggrin 

Report · 1:53am
&.& passive aggresivism.

Report · 1:54am
lol sorry dear but i will let you do your thing i was just imputiong my opion.

Report · 1:54am
then go on

Report · 1:54am
imputing*

Report · 1:55am
*brb rr)
but keep typing.

Report · 1:55am
... thats it really. if you have a number in your head then yuou will be more confident when talking and thus more likely for them to agree with you.
hunny?
is u there?

Report · 1:59am
i am back
im think of.. 65 dollars.

Report · 2:00am
lol h shiz i didnt read that you left XD woops

Report · 2:00am
....
lol.
yeah. are you there?

Report · 2:02am
i dont respond to lol
;P

Report · 2:02am
oh lol. got me this time.
i didnt even realize it.

Report · 2:03am
wink  oh yeah, jelous? lol jk

Report · 2:03am
nah. i just got punched, mentally.
for being stupid

Report · 2:03am
your not stupid, smile  you smart

Report · 2:04am
hehe. thank you.
well i think i should head off to bed. just a thought.

Report · 2:05am
smile  yeah i think your right.
are you going as well?

Report · 2:05am
nah. im going to tell this b***h off first! ********!!!!

Report · 2:06am
... who?
micole?
n*

Report · 2:06am
no. im not mad at nicole. i was mad at chai. you got it confused. lol
but this b***h...just wanted to add me.
so i kinda accepeted her..but
i asked her if i know her.
her response was..."you look familiar..at mclane. delete me if you want..."
and then a last reply.

Report · 2:08am
you said "her"... who chai?

Report · 2:08am
"bye"
this girl i just added.

Report · 2:08am
... who? XD

Report · 2:08am
IDK her name.
or who she is.

Report · 2:09am
... lol
why did you add her?

Report · 2:10am
******** b***h. and then someone else is bugging me.

Report · 2:10am
XD

Report · 2:10am
i added her because i only wanted to ask. and then i'll delete her.

Report · 2:10am
lol thats could XD

Report · 2:10am
i cant message her until i added her.
now im doing what she wants.

Report · 2:11am
... giggidy.

Report · 2:11am
she can go ******** herself. with sandpaper.

Report · 2:12am
ooooo XD

Report · 2:12am
thats my favorite insult.

Report · 2:12am
dont even wana think about the pain.

Report · 2:13am
now that b***h puts this ";( sorry"
oh okay. drama died down.
i deleted her.
I think im just a drama queen also. but ppl are just stupid.
&_&

Report · 2:16am
smile  no your not, people are just stupid
alrightie dear are you tired?

Report · 2:18am
smile  well dear, i think its time for us to go sleepy poo
lol

Report · 2:19am
... mmmkay then.

Report · 2:19am
is you sleepy?

Report · 2:19am
no. first day back on fb and ppl are stupid. i can use some sleep so i guess i will?

Report · 2:20am
YAY!! we get to sleep togeath (kinda) again.
yeah. but when is your bedtime?

Report · 2:21am
11pm
;P

Report · 2:21am
surprised 
bad boy.

Report · 2:22am
wink  im YOUR bad boy. i'd kill for you baby.

Report · 2:22am
lmao. and then HURRICANE starts playing right now. oh the ********.
;D
well sorry for the hold up.
I &3 You with my everything. I hope to see you soon. Not sure thou sad  but everything will be alright.
goodnight and xoxo sweet dirty dreams, baby
&3 xoxo &3
I ,3 YOU SO MUCH! and you made my day yesterday and today. i will havve such a pleasent day knowing your back. sweet kinky dreams and good night biggrin <3*.Report · 2:25amgiggles* <3i love you too! goodnight, prince..