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not as a character's voice or my author sense but simply as me. beware of the sudden change in subjects!

i cant sleep right now and it can be a good or bad thing right now. i can toss and turn out write something out. i shall write after i finish typing this. used to use this alot and talk to people here but not anymore. i think of them and at times miss them but its ok to miss people nothing wrong with that. i never like missing people[faint laughter] prefer to not have that longing.
i seem to lose sight of things at times but always remember or am shown what is truly important.
i know that everything will be okay.
i know this because i have the greatest friends someone can have. no we dont go get drunk and party. no we dont nurse hangovers. no we dont backstab each other.
we laugh cause we're silly. we love cause we care. we run over to the car to call shotgun.
they have been there when i have laughed my loud laugh and not cover their ears. they have witnessed my choking on air and mistake it for laughing. they have ditched class to make sure i was ok when i was upset. they make time out of their day to just hang out and talk. walks around the neighborhood. sitting on the swings and just looking at the sky as the sunset. running down the hill screaming and laughing the whole way down trying to escape Allie. carrying me through the deep part of the pool. giving me piggyback rides. playing lazer quest. calling at the uncanny best times. listening to me while i cry and sob and blew my nose. making me feel worth so much after a jerk comes through life. recieving letters on horrid days and the letters make my day. getting surprise messages from old friends who i thought i was never gonna talk to as before. not always telling me that i'm right. to try for my dreams and never give that up.talking of my story and brainstorming for it. so that it can be epic! staying up at night to talk even when they were tired. handling my sister's dog running up to them and nearly tackle them with licks hahaha. taking me out to eat! Making cookies and trying not to burn them. teaching me how to throw a ball, laughing at me with me for me. so much kindness and love and warmth these amazing people have!!! these people i am honored to call my friends and family
To fill my life with love and give love to my friends and family and even strangers. living life doesnt consist of just the good things. and just enjoying life when its good. to live life is to accept what comes, to make friendships and family bonds that will hold you through the rough times. the rough times will either make you a better or worse person, a victim or a survivor. or make you a more sensitive and kinder person. a wiser thinker. know that its scary to see life change but that its ok. its ok to be afraid at first-or later or during hahaha- there is nothing wrong. its ok to be sad when you say goodbye, to a good era and time of your life but those times will come again but it may not be in the same manner from before or that way you expect. or you might like change which is cool cause i know it throws me off [laughter]. Every person you meet makes an impact in life whether we realize or not, a kind word or smile from them may change your world or day. imagine what a kind act from you will do for them? Cherish time with loved ones even the ones who drive you insane [laughter]

And that will conclude my rambling. Until next time, when i might not be able to sleep.
With all my love and laughter, good night my friends!
Yours Truly [: