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The nice breeze, the nice cold breeze, it feels unbelievably wonderful on my pale white skin.. Hearing birds cheer-ping early in the morning, relaxing sounds of leaves moving. What is it about nature that makes me so relaxed..? The sounds of a human heart my hidden melody.. The comfort of someone's arms.. like a wall all around me, protecting me. What is it about life that makes me want to keep living it? You know one day yours going to die.. But.. For some reason we continue to go on. Go on with our lives, living it to the fullest possible extent. Is that what makes us want to live it? To see how far we can go? I'm scared to get married, but overwhelmed with the warm feeling of it. The breeze from the wind.. Chills my body, but the dreams of being married, warms it.

I hope that one day.. I will be married, and have kids running around the house.. I hope that one day.. I can truly say, "I lived my life.. And happy I lived it.".. But for now.. It's all a mystery. Hopefully, I can be wed.. And when I am... I hope I live til i'm 101 years old. That would be a great life.... To be able to die a old person. To see my kids running around with kids of their own.. I hope.. I pray.. I wish... That comes true.

Dear God,

I know I may not pray to you, or even believe in you most of the time... I just image someone up there, but.. Not caring who it is. As long as they are nice and taking care of my loved ones I wouldn't care.. But please hear me this one time.. Lord, God.. Whatever you wish to be called by.. Save me from my torment.. Save me from my wondering mind.. Heal me of my pain and suffering.. I just want to cry... I want someone to call mine.. So please, Lord, the one in heaven.. Grant me my wish.. My prayer... And help me truly be happy in life... Then.. When you want me.. You can come take me home...

I am forever your child..

Amen.