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I'm starting to re-evaluate my goals and my entire life. lol For months, I've been dying to save money for this concert, and by dying, i mean DYING. I was throwing tantrums and trying so hard to convince my parents to allow me to go, which doesnt always end so good. But recently, my best friend passed the CPA board exam, which makes her a certified CPA. She told me this morning that she applied in an accounting firm in Manila and got hired. She'll be coming home next week but will only stay for a couple of days cause she'll be returning back to Manila to start her job.

This made me think. Made me realize what I've been doing to my life. My bestfriend already has a job! Like, a full-time job! With her receiving monthly salaries, living in an apartment on her own, cooking for herself, doing chores and will literally be on her own. While here I am, being a bummer and still depending on my parents, still stuck in Bacolod for 2 years or even more. It feels like the world is moving on and I'm being left behind. My best friend will be living on her own while I'm stuck here throwing tantrums about a ******** concert. How immature could I be?

I never thought I'd be saying this but damn I'm letting go of the concert and start focusing on my career. I need to strive hard and catch up with my best friend. But...I hate my career. lol i dont know where will life take me and im starting to doubt myself. II just hope everything will turn out fine. lol