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I leave in five days for college.
Almost three weeks ago I started talking to this kid.
I developed feelings for him.
I broke things off officially with this guy I couldn't stand to be with so I could get a shot with the one I liked.
Last week we finally got to hang out, and instantly I knew I would stop with the sleeping around and partying.
This weekend I spent the whole time with him at his house.
Tonight I almost ruined what we just started with one little thing.
I have never wanted anything to work so badly with a guy until now.
I leave in five days to a two hour away college.
Conner works three weeks straight out of every month and only gets a week off.
This relationship is going to be hard but I am willing and going to do my damnedest to make this work.
I don't care about his money or about the things he owns.
What I care about is the type person he is.
When I see him I see a person that I would never get bored with, someone who loves kids, has a true passion about something, isn't the kind of person that likes to start s**t, makes me feel safe, is a great cuddlier, and even better person sleep next to.
I want this to work...so badly..