Honestly I can't say why I'm here, entering text into an unvisited journal.
I would say nostalgia, but nothing about my memories of Gaia qualifies as nostalgia.
Actually, they do. Gaia did little to benefit my social development as an adolescent insecure delinquent, but hey, it was one of my first exposures to the internet, and what it means to be anonymous. It taught me the danger of my own feelings, and what happens when you take meaningless text too seriously. It taught me these things and more, despite being a total waste of time in every other respect.
I suppose I came back to revisit my embarrassing past self's sad attempts at sounding clever, or different from everyone else. Truly, looking back, I was no different in my subtle feeling of superiority than any other teenage vampire loving social nut. Heck, it's what youth's all about. I'd be a fool to say I've lost my insecurity. I'm still in many ways the same kooky, unsure attention whore with inept social skills. I'm just… well, better at hiding it, I suppose.
I type this here as though someone else may find it, but the truth is, I'll probably be the only one reading it, some time years from now. Given, of course, this site lasts however many revolutions I'll be away. For now, I'll just revisit my past, and be on my way.
…also I don't remember accumulating so many Gaia gold points. I mean, I got 27,997. …is that a lot? I don't even know.
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