Mood: *see above and add a bit of depression and a LOT of boredom...and a headache*
Currently Listening To: *waits for "Ms. New Booty" to end...okay* "Passion" - Utada Hikaru
Currently Listening To: *waits for "Ms. New Booty" to end...okay* "Passion" - Utada Hikaru
I feel like Momiji or Honey-kun when they're all big eyed and wailing and saying things like "HARU-CHAN! HARU-CHAN! ;O;" I feel kinda like that. >> Just...
*broods in the corner*
The past two days have been really weird for me. I've been, not so depressed...I think lonely. Like, I didn't get any attention. Which is true, but I feel bad because I don't wanna seem like an attention-whore. T.T
And my whole family was here, and it was all uuuggggghhhh for me.
Still, no motivation to do anything. Not to draw, not to RP, not to talk, not to watch yaoi anime.
OKAY....YOU KNOW IT'S BAD WHEN IIA DOESN'T WANT TO WATCH YAOI.
I wanna go brood over ice cream. And cry. Not for a particular reason...just to cry because I haven't cried for a while...in my standards, anyways. But I don't think I have motivation to even do THAT.
I've been out of it all day, too I spilled water once, my orange soda twice, and i was fighting spacing out while I was driving. -o- ?It's like I'm just thinking all day.
But I don't THINK of anything. gonk It's like I'm doing nothing....except breathing.
The only time I'm really up and running is in the morning before school, when I'm around my friends.
Did I mention I got a hair cut and my 5...6? year old cousin said I look like a boy, and so did my brother. My nanny critisized me for wearing boy clothes. gonk But they're COMFY. Then they teased me because I have big feet. T.T I HATE that. I'm REALLY self-consious, so I laughed with them, but I felt kinda bad inside.
It's been a hard week, and I feel bleh. My friend went on this spree that she was gonna die soon. I'm like "Drama. -o-" She's so.....not who she used to be. I find myself not even wanting to talk to her or being around her. Just...she's not the girl that I was best friends with anymore. She's different, to me at least.
And I know this sounds Dramatic...but let's face it. I'm a teenage girl.
I want a boyfriend. TT.TT Someone who will take my mind off of this shitz. I really really really really really need a hug from someone like that. I feel like my friends can hug me. But have you ever felt like it's not as special as that hug from that guy/girl you really like? <.>
End of drama spec. Moving on.
My computer is an a*****e and it makes me angst. >[ *kicks computer*
*waiting for good HikaruxKaoru fanfiction to come out.* ><
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