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Hiya, all~!

It’s... *ahem* Yes, it’s been a while. Months. In fact, this is perhaps among the longest breaks I’ve taken from my Gaia journal. Let me check really quickly.

Oh, it totally isn’t. I’ve been worse in terms of updating, haha. But, I do recall wanting to be committed to this journal and, all truth be told, I have not kept that commitment.

Let me first say this: Sorry. Sorry for not updating and sorry for breaking promises. While it has only been a few months, I feel like a huge chunk of my life has not been shared. I want to share, dear readers, and I apologize for being so... unreliable in that sense.

I’m a bit bothered with how I word things currently. Rereading some of my previous entries made me realize how much of a better writer I was in the past. Time changes and things change with time. For better or for worse, I am a different person than what you may have thought. Since my last entries, I am... completely new.

For this entry, I just want to talk about what I plan to do in a bit. I’m in grade eleven now and finally starting the IB curriculums. Last year, I was involved in the honour’s system, which is practically a pre-IB schedule. Now that I’ve done a few IB things, I feel like... Well, I’ll talk about that later (if I remember).

Since August (my last entry), I have matured emotionally and have gone through some extreme psychological phases. I have been beaten and broken, healed and shield...ed (I tried to make it rhyme, haha). A lot has happened, a lot that I want to share with you all, but I have to calm down and pace myself.

I’m going to share with you what happened in terms of sanity in these past few months. It is now semester two of my intermediate high school career. Having just finished my finals a few days ago, I think I’m comfortable enough to tell you what semester one did to me.

I’ll also say some things about No’C. No’C has been mentioned before in my journals, but a lot has happened between us, a lot that I want to share. In fact, the amount of progress we’ve made is, to my standards, quite surprising. I never thought I’d regard a person in my life like I regard No’C. It’s... really quite strange and I’ll reserve an entry for the kid.

In terms of my physical self, I’ve returned to midnight snacking and comfort binging. I’ve gained a few pounds here and there, but outwardly, it’s hardly noticeable. My weight has fluctuated crazily, but I’ll touch on that in a later entry.

Hm... I’ve also made a few friends from another school and I’m quite fond of them. Perhaps I’ll talk about that. Who knows?

There’re a lot of things I originally planned to write about. In fact, I had an agenda at the beginning of the year where I jotted down ideas that I would make into entries. There were notes about my first day of school and about my pet spider, Spider-san. Unfortunately, it seems that as times flew by, my memory went along with it. My ability to remember things was already terrible to begin with, but it has gotten a whole lot worse. For that matter, I won’t be writing about things I’ve forgotten because, well, I don’t know the details anymore. And that’s that.

I’ll continue with my lyric excerpts at the end of entries. I’ve been listening to this particular playlist I made in the past and I re-realized I like the songs. A lot.
So yeah! Pardon me for the change in attitude if you can sense it; look forward to me helplessly trying to recount the events of my recent past; and have an otherwise absolutely spectacular rest of the day.

For this silly entry’s song-excerpt-thingy, here:

First there’s lights out, then there’s lock up
Masterpieces serving maximum sentences
It’s their own fault for being timeless
There’s a price to pay and a consequence

In case you’re new or don’t remember from my previous entries (it has indeed been quite some time), the above are song lyrics to, well, a song. In a comment, if you can guess the title and artist, I shall reward you~! Alternatively, you can just comment anything. Or not comment at all.

I’m a lonely person. I like comments. But I’m fine with the view-count going up. It’s comforting to know Gaia lets me express myself to this anonymous audience. Until next entry! yum_puddi