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So I moved out of the safety of my dad's to try once again to live on my own. I am working on getting a permanent job again, I just wanted to continue working full time as a cannabis worker instead of part time which was all that was available in the small little town my dad lives in.

I am sad though because I have already wasted money on drinking and drugs since I came here to get close to someone that I now no longer talk to. I also started seeing my dealer, we finally had a fling and I don't regret it because it was a fun time but I'm nervous he'll only hangout if we party, so that isn't making me feel particular good.

I also had to leave my cat behind again, I just got her on a diet and my dad will probably fatten her up again...which won't be good for her health constantly dropping weight when I am there and then gaining it when I leave. I miss her so much right now.

But I did finally get a check up and a MRI that I was suppose to get three years ago. Still waiting on results though no news is also good news. Just been really sad to have to move on, my dad is 65 and retired but have no time to live with him because I want to be able to work more than just one shift a week in the cannabis industry.