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Sitting here at 9:18pm on a Saturday night I am thinking of life in general and how my mindset growing up was all about "I'll show them" when my days were filled with being bullied in elementary school, high school and even college. It never left, even though I honestly thought bullying stopped in high school and college people were so "Grown Up."

Reality is...All the people i went to school with, who didn't give a damn about me, all have better lives. Gotten married, had babies, etc. While i struggle with social anxiety and self image.

Even my cousins are all happy. Have families. I'm the only one without a family of her own, no husband or boyfriend no kids, not that i wanted any. Even my brother has a "family," While i'm the youngest, who doesn't know who she is or what she wants, or even the sense of reality. Although reality to everyone is different...as there is no sense of "Normal" these days.

What is "Normal?"