So, barely a week ago, my b/f suddenly broke it off. He told me he thought we wern't going anywhere anymore, that I was too good for him and he didn't want to hold me back. But today, one of our friends who graduated last year come back at first lunch (which my ex doesn't really have, but he was skipping third) and we both saw him at the same time and both ran over to give him a hug and we were practically on top of him before we realized the other was there. So, I ended up accidentally jamming him in the ribs with my elbow... ... but anyway, some chick walked over and he said he was skipping the rest of the day and I stayed to talk to Matt while they walked off together, but I didn't think to much of it, since almost everyone in our school knows him. But today, as me and my friend were leaving school, I looked over and he was sitting at the stoplight. With the chick from lunch. And she was in my seat. I don't think he saw me, because he was too busy looking at her And I just stared at them as we drove off; I really couldn't believe it for some reason. I dunno, maybe I thought it was too soon, or maybe I thought she was the reason he'd broken up with me. I really don't know what to think right now. I haven't even looked twice at anyone since he broke it off, since I feel like the better part of the last year has just gone through the drain. I came home and I walked inside and my mom started bitching at me and I have to work tonight and I have a ton of homework tonight and right now I'm feeling incredibally drained, emotionally and physically. What I want to do is go crawl into my bed and sleep for the next few days.
Small rant, not really relevant She's NOTHING like me. She blonde, and preppy and she wears earings and gobs of make up and little, low cut shirts and jeans. I don't see why he would want her so quickly after he broke off something I thought was really important to both of us. I want to think that she's just a friend who he's spending some time with, but three and a half hours in his truck? That's really not what it seems like...
Argh.... I really am REALLY confused. I wrote him a letter telling him how I felt, but I don't know if he even read it. He hasn't said anything about it or called me or anything, so I guess it might be time to move on... crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying
 CajunFaery · Thu Jan 06, 2005 @ 12:17am · 0 Comments |
