I met with Sora-sama today. By the way Akito-sama was described, she is the spitten image of her through and through. I can only hope that I don't make her angry or jealous. That is not a person I would want on my bad side. She said...I have to stay away from Kisuke...heh. That'll probably prove diffucult but for the sake of his safety I will do it. The first warning signal has been given. I wonder what would happen if I defied her...hm. I honestly don't think I want to know. I have an idea...but even thinking of it makes me tremble...Kisuke...I'm sorry, but I can't put you in danger. I can't and I won't. I guess I'll become a slave to school and studying. Though isn't that the fate of all us students? Fate...heh. I honestly don't know if I believe in it or not...but after I met Kisuke...I started to think about it more and more. There is a reason why we were put on this earth...why my soul was born cursed...why I harbor the soul of the uma within me...a juunishi. Hatsuharu-san wrote something that made me think a lot...he said...that we juunishi are born to love the God and no one else. That's what he was told. Yet...he and Isuzu-san fell in love and their curse was lifted. They were able to lead such happy and peaceful lives...full of joy and true love. I can only hope that such a positive fate awaits us...the next generation. For if there is only strife at the end of the tunnel...I feel I would rather be crushed by the on-coming train than to keep going and see what's on the other side. Kisuke...here I will write to you. You won't know it...but if something should ever happen to me...I want you to have this. I'm saying this now because I don't know what the future will hold for us...for we who are cursed. There is so much I don't know...and it will probably be that way until I go out and experience it for myself. But I hope that through everything...our struggles...our pain...we gain knowledge that will carry on to those after us. I pray that you keep yourself well Kisuke...just by doing that...I'll be happy. Hopefully there won't be any more trips to the doctor anytime soon...hm? Heh, I started a new book today...about a girl who loves fruity ice cream and a boy who's totally carefree...like a little puppy. Perhaps when it's finished...I'll send you a copy...hm?
~Izu
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