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Don't look...Just do it....I tell myself in a whisper
One quick cut to end this all
Pain will only last for a short time
My heart is too heavy, too heavy to carry by myself
I need to let this tired body go, so it can rest in peace and sleep forever.

I close my eyes and see my friends and family all who stare back at me
I know they will cry once they walk in to see my body motionless
I said I never would, I said I wouldn't even try....
But things can change along with what I think now.

I believe I have nothing, and is what I will have if i continue this saddned life.
My friends will weep, my family will cry, my boyfriend's heart will be heavy with grief,
But they must understand that what I do is not selfish, but a relief.
One less thing to worry about
One less thing to try to please
One less person to love.....

I do it now sliding the razor down, down, down my wrist
Blood flows, is streams down my arms onto my legs.
I feel relief, I feel my spirit rise
I feel less heavy now lighter.

My eyes look to one side but back to the sky
I close my eyes, so relieved, so free
I am gone...gone from the world that makes me dpressed.
My loved ones, forgive and forget
Let me be....Let me go.