People always ask me "why do you cut?" the answer is I don't know really. Maybe it's to show the world how much they hurt me, maybe it's to make sure that I'm really awake and that all of this pain is not a dream, or maybe it's to se if I can still feel anything at all? I don't do it for show because I make sure no one see's my cuts I don't like attention. I hope that one day I can stop because it's like an addiction and I don't like being addicted. Everytime something goes wrong I have to cut and I don't know why? Can anyone tell me? Is it to punish myself? I want to stop but I can't...it doesn't even hurt anymore so why stop? I think it's to make myself feel something thats not sadness its instead pain which is much easier to deal with.Can anyone make me stop cutting myself? I'm confused about it but everysince my mom took away my razors I've been worse than ever and moreshy and self destructive and I've hated myself even more without the cuts. Why can't she just let me hurt myself in order to stay alive because I feel without cutting I will die? Does he want me to die?And to those people that tell me to stop how and why?
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