Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

Pissed

Some ******** a*****e at school told on me for cutting how ******** stupid is that? Do they get enjoyment from my pain ? It hurts less for me to cut and get the pain over with and they are draggng it outso they must want me to die...but why would they want me to? I've never done s**t to any of them. SO why do they do this to me all the time? It hurts because even if they think that they are doing good they aren't they're making it worse and ore painful for me how dare they its none of their goddamn business if I cut or not. I do it because people like them make me do it not myfault I can't stopit's people like them that make me want to die and while I do love my squishy more than anything I am starting to doubt tat life can be worth thismuch painbecause I do love him but....life hurts so much to get through especailly when ppl don' mind their business...I would like to met this person and ask what it isd they have against me because as far as I know I haven't done anything to anyone so why the f** they're trying to make me kill myself idk. When I do kil myself because of the trouble I got in for cutting I hope they ******** die from the guilt I want them to burn in Hell with me so I can watch them sufer for puahing me oer the edge one day theywill see that NO ONE could help me exept squishy ad if you take away my computer you take away that and without that i die......If I'm not on fora while odn't be suprisedit will be their fult I never wanted it to end because of a tattletale but guess we can't choose the way we go ot can we?

All I can say is ******** YOU whoever told an I hope that your happywith your pathetic lie of unwanted help and rejection.......I'm gonna turn out to be one of those kids that goes crazy and kills everyone at school because none of them ver help me they just hurt me I hopr they all doe and rot in Hell with me

if hell exsist which I don't thinkit oes because thisis pretty much hell nw for me because of them.