i'm such a failure!
noone ever listens. why? if i tell not to do something then don't do it! i know better. i have my reasons and no matter how unreasonable they are they make perfect sense to me. everytime! you are wrong. i'm not scared of loosing. you can't be scared of something you know is coming. ok so maybe you can. but if you know it's coming then why even bother. but no people never listen! i'm not scared of loosing. i have lost too many times to be scared of it. i am just scared of getting my hopes up again and getting them blown away like ashes when it doesn't work out. that's why i'd rather give up. noone listens. just because i am laughing doesn't mean i'm playing or joking. i'm just doing it not to cry!. have you ever thought of that? no of course not! you think you are so great well then i've proved you wrong. apparently you don't know what's really good. next time just please leave me alone. i am only in that class to get my fredit so i can graduate! after i'm done with it i will probably never do anything artistic again. and if i do i will do it only for myself. i really wish people would listen. i really wish i could talk to someone. i am so sick of all this! i'm sorry for being all emo. i'm actually really happy for my friend and that she won. she deserves it. i'm just mad that my taecher sent out my picture even when i told her not to and when i told her that i thought it was pointless. ha! i proved her wrong!
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