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I opened my eyes, I was hoping to just wake up in the back of the van, The Family around me all smiles, just thinking “oh, it was only a nightmare.” But I only saw the concrete below me. I closed my eyes again, collapsing to the ground, crying. I couldn’t stop. Nothing could change where I was. Suddenly, I hear the scream of CLAIRE! It was Sami. She came running over and I clung onto her like the last thread of a rope. “Oh, Claire!” she said as she just hugged me as tight as possible; someone else came up to us. It was Carla.
Carla: I just saw wiL. He just went running past, he didn’t even acknowledge me at all. It looked like he was crying.
She looked down at me. “Oh, no” she said as I clung onto her as well. I was clinging onto Carla and Sami like a baby to their mom. I was crying so hard and I couldn’t stop. I managed to get these words between the sobbing “I COULDN’T SAY IT! ((I was hysterical)) I COULDN’T SAY IT! ((my voice was weaker that it had ever been)) I DON’T KNOW WHY! I don’t understand. Because I do! Everyone knows I do! It’s obvious! I Do! WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL I DO! I do. I do.
The world went black
Now, this isn’t my perspective anymore, it’s like omnipresent perspective.
It had been almost two days since then. Luckily for everyone, that was how long it took to get to the next venue. No one was switching in between buses. No one was even keeping in touch, besides the fact of The Aiden Family’s van following Aiden’s bus.
Claire had spent all her time since she awoke from crying herself to sleep in the corner of the van. She just sat there in cradle position. She didn’t move. The only thing she had done besides cry hysterically was say “keeping following them”. To see her not move, not say a word, not even eat or sleep, it broke The Family’s heart. Most of their efforts besides driving was put into trying to get Claire, to just live again. Her world had almost stopped, shut off. And when she tried to talk, her mouth moved but no voice came out. But The Family would not give up so easily, one of them would be with her at all times, trying to get her to eat, sleep, or just move, anything was good enough. And when she cried, they would be there to hug her.
The Aiden bus wasn’t much different. wiL just laid on his bunk, staring vacantly into the floor. Nothing could rattle him and nothing could shake him. He wasn’t hungry, he wasn’t tried, and he was NEVER in the mood to talk. But Aiden knew what was wrong, they managed to get out off him before he got to his bunk where he has been. But just as the Family was there for Claire, wiL’s Brothers were there for Him. They were trying everything as well. Just to get him to start his life up again.
Finally both The Aiden Bus and The Aiden Family Van had reached the venues.
Both families had a mission. Aiden and The Aiden Family, besides wiL and Claire, walked off the bus towards each other; it was almost like a battle. Everyone was in line and they stopped only a few feet away from each other. Everyone had a serious look upon their face as the dead silenced reigned between them.
Carla: We Need to talk to wiL!
Jake W: You can’t talk to wiL! But we need to talk to Claire!
Mandy: You can’t talk to her!
Nick: This IS her fault, you know?
Sami: We know that, SHE knows that! But you don’t understand. The only thing she wants is for wiL to be happy, the happiest he can be.
Angel: And this is happy? He wasn’t moved, he hasn’t eaten, and he barely sleeps.
Dani: It’s been the same with Claire.
Sami: The thing is Claire doesn’t believe she can him happy. She can’t stand herself, we are barely being able to teach her to deal with herself. And the person she loves, she believes he can do so much better than her. She believes he deserves so much better than her ((she said this with a sadness))
Carla: It doesn’t help this is the man that saved her life. And when I was with her, I managed to make out “where can I turn to now?” that what she said or tried to.
Jake D : It doesn’t help that wiL has to do a show tonight.
Chels: Oh, god. That is going to be awful for him. Well, the least we can do is make sure Claire isn’t there. That would be too much more both of them.
The next thing, they saw was Claire, she looked paler than a ghost, walking by them. She was weak, she was fumbling around, she could barely walk.
They all screamed: CLAIRE!
But she didn’t look at them. She just kept walking and walked right onto Aiden’s bus.
Troy: We better leave them alone.
Everyone agreed.
Claire walked onto the bus, and wiL jumped up “Claire!” as he wiped away tears. The two of them tried to smile, it was broken, but still it was there. Claire: You need to eat something. You have a show tonight. The fans are counting on you.
She began to look into the cupboards to find anything she could make. wiL said as he sat at the table near her, “I know. I wasn’t going to cancel it.” Claire found the closest thing that was both filling and tasted sweet and cooked it up and served it to wiL. She sat down across from him. The meal was enough for two, and just as wiL was about to take the first bite, he looked up at Claire’s own frail body and said, “I’m not eating any of it unless you have some with me. You haven’t eaten anything I can tell.” Claire: You need to eat, wiL. Don’t worry about me. wiL: Of course, I’m going to worry about you! No matter what happens, I’m going to take care of you and make sure you are okay. ((he said the last part faintly, looking down)) And with those words, Claire had to fight back tears once again, but she wasn’t that strong and a few tears slipped past her hold. She slowly got up and moved next to wiL. Claire: Fine, I’ll do anything as long as you eat. wiL: Good! ((he tried to smile and handed her a fork)) The two ate silently, not saying much. wiL: I better go to sound check, they probably started without me. Claire: oh, okay.
Claire got up, and wiL began to walk away, but he turned around and kissed her on the head and said “Take care of yourself, if not for you, for me, okay?” And he walked away and was almost out the door when Claire began to stumble and say, “I, I, I Lov” but wiL cut her off and said sternly, almost harshly, “please for both of us, don’t force it.” And he walked off the bus. “how long have you been there?” wiL said a tad shocked as both Aiden and The Aiden Family surrounded the bus, trying to hear what the two had been saying. “uh…Let’s just go do soundcheck,” said Jake W. Aiden walked away, well all but Troy who snuggled up next to Sami, wrapping his arms around her. Troy: I’ve missed you know? Sami: I missed you too. So wiL has been doing just as bad as Claire? Troy: Yeah. Is she okay, in there?
Claire walked out, she wasn’t as pale as she was, but still wasn’t healthy. Carla came up to her, and she fell onto her, leaning on her for support.
Carla: You wanna go lay down again?
Claire nodded, and with that Carla began to walk back her back to the van. Claire: Go to the show tonight.
Carla looked at her in shock, surprised that she was talking. Carla: YOU’RE TALKING! *HUGS HER TIGHT* I’m so happy! But you know I can’t leave you alone.
Claire couldn’t help but smile, Carla always managed to do that, but she then said, “Carla, you have to go to the concert. I’ll be fine, trust me. Besides Bill needs you there! You’re his good luck charm. He always does his best for you, Coach!”
Despite the fact that Bill and Carla were an item, she still couldn’t help to have a little pink arise in her cheeks.
Carla muttered “fine.”
Claire was just laying in the van as the others were all out either shopping or at sound check despite much protest from The Aiden Family.
Claire then got an idea that brought a small smirk to her face and with that she was out of the van and running to the nearest store.
SHOW TIME
The Horrors came out brilliant as always. And they actually had a strong fan base tonight so they played an extra song and promised to be outside after the show. Then it was Tokio Hotel; they owned stage. And Bill actually brought Carla up onstage to sing together. He missed her even if it had only be two days.
BACKSTAGE
wiL was getting ready, he still felt this horrible pit in his stomach. He couldn’t cancel the show, he couldn’t do that to the fans. And she won’t let him either. Twirling around his mic, he was nervous. Nothing was feeling right everything felt off. He went to grab more tape for his mic when there stood a cupcake in a Halloween wrapper. It was chocolate with blood red icing, and beside it was a note, which read:
wiL, you are my cupcake
you always have been
and always will be
And then he remembered everything, her obsession and love for cupcakes, her cupcake necklace you could always find around her neck, and her bracelet. It was always a tad strange but now it made sense. He kissed the note and placed it in his wallet, and all smiles ate the cupcake.
Jake W jealously said, “Where the hell did you get that!?!? D: “
wiL, icing all over his face, chuckled, “from my cupcake!”
Jake W looked at him like a man in a white coat looks at a man in a nicely fitting but tight white jacket in a padded room.
“Okay,” he said still not understanding.
Tokio Hotel finished they are AMAZING set. And after changing the equipment, the Aiden banner dropped and the crowd was crazy.
Evil laughing that could only come from a psychopath filled the venue. Dim lights were placed on the stage and there was wiL, looking as sinister as ever. And the set began.
IN THE VAN
Claire could hear the music playing; it made her smile. But she couldn’t shake this awful feeling. A voice inside her, that doubt wouldn’t leave her alone. I can’t be with him, I can’t make him happy. That’s all I want, that’s all I want in life. It doesn’t matter how I may feel, I just want him to be happy. He deserves that, and I’m not the one to do that.
of course, the feeling took control of her, and it robbed her of her smile, her laughter, and left her with the emptiest she always had and feared. An hour and half went by, and the feeling had ransomed all of her all emotion except emptiness.
She walked out of the van like a zombie. She didn’t know what she was doing and she care what happened to her. She was just walking. It would be pitch black outside if it weren’t for the streetlights illuminating a slight path. Suddenly some drunk guy came up to her, pushing her up against a car, and trying to say some sort of words to get her in his bed, but she didn’t respond at all. she just looked at the ground, not fighting him or trying to get him off so then he grabbed both her arms holding her down; he began to kiss her neck. Claire’s eyes grew large and she couldn’t scream; she couldn’t talk. She just began to kick and fight. The a** too drunk to notice and kept on what he was doing. She lost her voice and was too weak to push him off. All she could was just mouth “HELP ME” as a tears ran down her eyes. She was still trying to fight but closed her eyes. She couldn’t bare to look at what was happening to her. Suddenly, she could hear footsteps running over. She still kept her eyes close. And with the words "GET THE ******** OFF HER!", the drunk was quickly and forcefully ripped off of her and tossed to the ground. With a couple kicks to the stomach, he ran off as fast he could.
Claire was on the floor, crying and when her hero came to the ground, helping her up, he said "are you okay?" . the voice was so familiar, she just rushed into his arms, crying uncontrollably. In his arms it felt like home, and she knew this could only come from one person. "I LOVE YOU! I'VE ALWAYS LOVED YOU! IT'S SO OBVIOUS! EVERYONE KNOWS! EVERYONE CAN SEE HOW MUCH I CARE ABOUT YOU! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH IT HURTS! YOU’RE THE ONE! YOU’VE ALWAYS BEEN THE ONE! Ever since I first saw you and your smile. Your arms are the only home I know. I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU, wiL.”