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Alright uhm....what to say...oh yes. This week was not that great. Hmm first off I have been having a hard time lately between work, school, one of my friend's aunts dieing, not being able to talk to my friends or my boyfriend and my ever present depression. I lost my slim control and I know pain helps me regain it. So what did I do? take a guess. Yep...I broke a promise. But I only did it once when my anger threatened someone. So its not bad I guess. My best friend saw what I had done and she yelled at me....I needed that....I guess I shouldn't complain though. my life isn't as hard as others I have some things easy...But then of course there is the fact that neither one of my parents have a paying job, I don't have one either...and there are four people, four cats, a dog and a tank of fish to feed. No wonder I don't eat much anymore right? Things will get better according to my Friend...I wish to believe him with al my soul but...things haven't changed at all. The house my father has been working on for over a year is still not finished...there is no money for anything and my mother is falling into a deep depression. Plus my biological Mother came down to live with us which is good...but sometimes she makes me worry about her. My brother doesn't call and my friends don't talk to me ((The ones who aren't here...)) and the friends I have in real life are being bitchy and complainy to each other. And like normal I get dragged into it all.
I feel empty though one of my friends did say that he cared and that he loved me...I felt special then. Made my moment of darkness go light again.
 Annal Combustion · Sun Mar 25, 2007 @ 11:29pm · 0 Comments |
