hello all, how are you and welcome to my pallette the world i will create with words. (i know corny right >.> wink
Today I slept in. It seemed that me talking to shawn till 1 in the mourning took its toll on me, I certainly didn't want it to go on for so long but i guess we both lost track of time. We are the best of friends and he just got free long distance so its better for us to keep in touch like this. He live in Toronto ^_^ hopefully i will see him again when i go to stratford and then when i go to Toronto for Anime North. If my dad and my mom let me that is. It would seem that i should be able to since i have my own job and its not their money, however it might differ in their eyes. I am going to stratford though next week with my school. I hope i can cross the border, i really do. I think i should get my permit not really for driveing but for an id. I am goingto be 18 so i should get over my fears. I guess they paralyze me down to the bone. I hate it so much. These stupid things that just grip me like i have no choice i hate it. How can that happen how can that be. These things that i don't nor want to be the victim to. However i feel that these fears keep me alive some-what. keep me in check if you will. It bothers me sure but dosn't everyone have their own personal fears. I try to be strong to put on a smile and live, to take everything and stuff it into a bag. However sometimes i wish i could let my troubles out, to talk with another person so these secrets aren't just my own anymore. I wish i hope. I can dream right. However everytrhing comes with a price and thus i don't want to have that freedom if it means that i will burden another person that way. To have my problems on their shoulders. I do not want to be that selfish.
Oki sorry about my rant >.<
Well yours truely
Emi
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